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Started by Ryan, June 05, 2010, 04:37:28 PM

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Lachlann

I can't say I've ever had a digestive problem unless you count a really high metabolism.

My ankles used to feel really weak and sore, especially around my period, but since being on T they feel stronger and I don't get pain anymore.
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kyril



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Between Names

As for the crying thing, I cry a lot.  I cry when I'm mad, when I'm sad, when I'm scared, when I'm happy...  Just about anytime I'm feeling intense emotion.  It gets annoying, but I don't want to lose my ability to cry completely. :-\
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Jeatyn

Quote from: LucienOctopus on June 07, 2010, 01:40:30 PM
As for the crying thing, I cry a lot.  I cry when I'm mad, when I'm sad, when I'm scared, when I'm happy...  Just about anytime I'm feeling intense emotion.  It gets annoying, but I don't want to lose my ability to cry completely. :-\

I am the same, the anger thing drives me NUTS. I'm yelling at somebody, and then I feel the lump in my throat and my face go red and then come the tears. It's so emasculating.
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Nathan.

Quote from: Jeatyn on June 07, 2010, 02:25:01 PM
I am the same, the anger thing drives me NUTS. I'm yelling at somebody, and then I feel the lump in my throat and my face go red and then come the tears. It's so emasculating.

Same here, I hate that. I'd be quite happy to see that gone on T.
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Cairus

Dude. When I first started T I COULDN'T CRY. It was like my tear valve was shut off. It was pretty scary because for me getting teary is part of an emotional progression... Get mad... Cry if I need to... Work it off. But I couldn't cry. So every time I got mad it would just stay in me and boil and I didn't know how to get rid of it/externalize it. I was so used to being able to just cry it off and feel better.

One night I was having some drama and needed to cry but couldn't. Like the tears would NOT COME OUT. I could 'feel' it, feel the undercurrent of sadness/rage/crygasm-y-ness, but unable to actually cry. Frustrating. So we had an epic night of Get Him To Cry. I couldn't squeeze out one tear. This freaked me out for some weeks. It was like a had a hormonal block against crying.

Prior to being on T it was the exact opposite, which was also frustrating/humiliating; anything that I felt strongly about, sad or not, tears would come out. I could be thinking about a really great day at work or what close friends I was with someone and I would start blubbering involuntarily. 'Dude, it's nothing to cry about...' 'I'm not crying on purpose god damnit!'  I'd tear up from shame, regret, happiness... You name it. Hated it, was the most illogical ->-bleeped-<- ever.

'OMGWTF I can't cry what's going on' went on for some weeks. I just needed to re-learn crying, as weird as it sounds. I eventually adapted and I can cry if I need to. It just doesn't happen automatically for no reason anymore.

Body temperature went up. I wake up with a hard on every morning, pretty sure it's fabric friction or something from rolling around in bed. And yeah, stink. Manstink.
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Arch

My experience with crying is almost identical to Cairus', so he spared me the necessity of writing it down. But one thing: I'm able to cry now in response to specific things that really really bother me, yet I can't just cry when I'm feeling down. Sometimes I need to, and I just can't.

I spent years with my emotions shut down, so I wasn't crying at all. Then I had some grief to deal with, and that involved lots of crying. Then I shut down again. Then I came out of the closet and had to learn how to feel and learn how to let myself cry. Now...as I described above.

I am starting to feel like a human pendulum.
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Vanessa_yhvh

From the flip side of the crying coin, at 2.5 months on E I find I'm able to muster half a tear at times, which is a dramatic improvement over the inability to do it at all before.

The need to have a good cry and inability to do so at all were emotionally crippling for me.
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cynthialee

I havent seen Sevan cry in the last two months. Before T s/he whould cry at the most minor sad stuff.
I on the other side of the coin have always been prone to tears. Now with E I am a water works ready to happen, even if it is just a simple comercial that uses an appeal to emotion.
So it is said that if you know your enemies and know yourself, you can win a hundred battles without a single loss.
If you only know yourself, but not your opponent, you may win or may lose.
If you know neither yourself nor your enemy, you will always endanger yourself.
Sun Tsu 'The art of War'
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Ryan

I was wondering if I could still cry actually. I never really cried that much before anyway.
I've got a feeling I'll probably lean more toward anger than upset though.
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elvistears

I cry bigtime when I'm all PMSed. I am so looking forward to that going away.  Last time I got so emotional talking about the state of mental health care in this country that I nearly burst into tears thinking about mentally ill people on the streets.  Which is upsetting, but I can usually hold myself together.
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Carson

I used to cry whenever I was really frustrated or sad. And now I can't. I think I have cried 3 times since the time I started T. The way I described it to my girlfriend is that Pre-T it used to kind of hurt to hold crying in, now it hurts in the same way to actually cry. If that makes sense.
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kyril

Hm...I'd be perfectly happy to not be able to cry. Can't remember ever wanting to.


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Nygeel

Not crying is one of the things I am looking forward to. The past week I've been crazy frustrated and sad where I've been crying...a lot.
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Ryan

I actually want to be able to cry. It's probably one of the few healthy ways I have of getting those emotions out of me.
Ryan fails at coping mechanisms. He says as he rolls a joint :)
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Miniar

I don't know if this is the T, but I just got out of a HOT shower... and I enjoyed it!

I never liked hot showers before. They always felt too hot.
Heat would make me nauseated even!

But this time I just stood in it and purred away...
I didn't even realize it was that much hotter 'till I got out of it..



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DaddySplicer

Quote from: Miniar on June 07, 2010, 07:22:41 PM
I don't know if this is the T, but I just got out of a HOT shower... and I enjoyed it!

I never liked hot showers before. They always felt too hot.
Heat would make me nauseated even!

But this time I just stood in it and purred away...
I didn't even realize it was that much hotter 'till I got out of it..

That's weird. I experienced the exact opposite. I can't stand heat at all anymore, particularly in the shower. I feel like my veins are going to burst through my skin. Before, I used to set the dials to just under scalding.
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kyril

Quote from: Ryan on June 07, 2010, 07:13:06 PM
I actually want to be able to cry. It's probably one of the few healthy ways I have of getting those emotions out of me.
Ryan fails at coping mechanisms. He says as he rolls a joint :)
Ah...I never experienced crying as a way of getting emotions out. It's just a humiliating involuntary physical overreaction, and it makes me feel worse.


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Elijah3291

Quote from: kyril on June 07, 2010, 10:42:53 PM
Ah...I never experienced crying as a way of getting emotions out. It's just a humiliating involuntary physical overreaction, and it makes me feel worse.

same for me
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DaddySplicer

In general, I became much less inhibited about being an ->-bleeped-<- to everyone.

(This is great talk, coming from a would-be forum member candidate, right?)

That and my veins all popped out.
Everywhere.
I now have one of those tell-tale throbbing veins in my forehead that protrudes unmistakably when I'm pissed. One look at it and my mates at work will go, "Jesus, what's happened! Don't roid-rage at me!"
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