I am from Wisconsin. I like to crossdress, although I don't get to often. Ever since I was like 8, I have felt more feminine and such. I like women just fine, but I get more caught up wishing I was a woman instead of dating one. I have no clothes of my own. Although I have job and money, I am just too nervous to face a cashier at a store. I have not told anyone about my habit, although my mom found out. She hates the idea and threatens to tell my whole family and relatives if she ever catches me. Life is confusing and sometimes miserable, and I cannot let anyone know because my family would freak out.
Now about my family...
I lived on a farm in the country until I was 4 years old. My dad was an alcoholic, drank every night of his life, and even drank at work. We finally left, leaving dad and his beer behind. They divorced soon after, leaving my brother and I without a father figure in the house. We moved to a small town afterwards and lived in an apartment for 2 years. During this time, my mom met a guy named Chuck, who I do not like at all. Shortly after my mom met Chuck, I found out that my dad was in a horrible accident on his snowmobile. Beer and 120 miles per hour don't mix. He broke 8 ribs, punctured a lung, and half his brain was dead. 6 month coma, and he knew nothing. He didn't even remember how to swallow. He thought he was still with my mom, and was angry when told otherwise. After months of therapy, he finally started walking. Now, he lives by himself, has a job, and is now driving, after 10 years of waiting. We now live in the country again. My 17 year old brother smokes, drinks, and uses drugs. Not a very good person. He's got a bad, bad temper, just like my father, and gets pissed at the smallest things. My stepdad is also an alcoholic, and has had his share of arguements with my mom, sometimes even getting violent. My whole household is just a hellhole and my family finding out about my CDing is going to tear my life to pieces. I feel like I'm the only one in the house who makes any sense.
Besides that, I think I'm a pretty nice person and I just need a place to come to. I need to talk to people who make sense and share some of the same thoughts as me. I've looked around the website and I really like it... I'll be coming here often.
ColdNight
