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Started by Aiden, June 13, 2010, 07:37:36 AM

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Aiden

Hi... so I'm Aiden, I've been a member of the forums for some time, used to be very active at first then drifted off.  So for those who know me, I'm still alive, just not getting anywhere quickly.

I came out to friends and family over 2 years ago, and have been in treatment since not long after.  I am a 24 year old transguy and was cleared and been on Hormones since December 2008. 

I also suffer forms of sever depression and anxiety disorder, that has resulted in it being difficult handling jobs.  So yes am on a very limited income called SSI.  Also means it has been taking me a long time to save money, just to get a legal name change.  I finally have enough, just need get the paper work and fingerprints and the stuff rolling.

It's been difficult, and I guess besides hanging around to much on the Virtual community called second life, I tend to shy away from groups in transgender community a lot, and it's not because anything wrong with the community, but it just depresses me to think about how long it's taking me to get things done.  I've heard of other guys getting done sooner, but same times i see some who take many years.  And some who never make it and eventually give up :/

Right now I guess i just try get by the best I can until can get things done.  I was a Trek fan, I've given up on conventions and many trek outings except to spend time with a few local friends when they get together.  I've pretty much dropped lot of the trek stuff, been exploring and learning on second life, in ways exploring myself as an individual as well and rediscovering parts of myself have buried do long.  Picked up some my interest in cultures again, learning about Shinto in Japanese culture, ancient Ireland mytholigy etc.  Role Playing when can focus on it.

It gives me some relief as well connecting to people, but sometimes it does feel like a long road and am moving so slow, and many times still feel alone.

There is a lot more could tell but that would take a lot time.  Just say, I'm happy with the physical changes of T, and I once got told my voice sounded sexy lmao but dono.  I'm more confident walking out of the house, long as I pull on the binder first.  But friends, and house-mate still struggle with gender pronouns, though the name they have gotten used to.  I haven;t gotten a full face of hair but some hairs on the chin and starting get mustache hairs.  the chin hairs I tend let grow a few inches before shave, but then it still takes a while for it to grow out.

Have been having some issues healthwise though which trying get checked out, and am crossing my fingers hoping I don't have the rare condition my grandmother was found with that causes severe clotting after surgeries.  Having get that checked out to.

Anyways hope can get more later on here. 
Every day we pass people, do we see them or the mask they wear?
If you live under a mask long enough, does it eventually break or wear down?  Does it become part you?  Maybe alone, they are truly themselves?  Or maybe they have forgotten or buried themselves so long, they forget they are not a mask?
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Janet_Girl

Welcome back Aiden.  ;D
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Lacey Lynne

Aiden:

Welcome back.  I remember you from before.  I left this forum myself for months because of work, family and finances. 

Like you, I'm having a rather slow go of things in the transition process myself.  Yes, it IS frustrating having to drag things out.  Just hang in there, man.  We all get older day by day anyway, so just keep on believing and do WHAT you can WHEN you can.  Hope that cheers you up some and helps you out.

Know what you mean about hanging out with The Community.  I don't really hang out with any trans groups either.  That's just me though.  Always been a bit of a maverick.

Anyway, glad you're back.  I like reading what you have to say!

:)   Lacey Lynne
Believe.  Persist.  Arrive.    :D



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Aiden

lol thanks, now just have see if I keep checking at least here.  though did set it as my homepage, browser is also set to open whatever pages had open when close down. and tend get so wrapped up really don't take time read much on here anyways
Every day we pass people, do we see them or the mask they wear?
If you live under a mask long enough, does it eventually break or wear down?  Does it become part you?  Maybe alone, they are truly themselves?  Or maybe they have forgotten or buried themselves so long, they forget they are not a mask?
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