A little while Longer,

while (my) Love can still laugh -
while i still feel connected  -
to what i once called, "better half "  -

While she can still laugh, and smile, and sing,
makes the bells of my heart still so joyously ring -

a little while longer ? I ask and i pray -
a little while longer, before love goes away ?

A little while longer - as long as we can -
even though i know, you'd still like "your man"

A little while longer, i ask and i plead,
while i know your heart cries - while it breaks and it bleeds -

a little while longer - let's please walk the path -
I know im being selfish, i calculated the math -

A little while longer, i know that it hurts -
to see me look pretty, in heels, and in skirts -

a little while longer, lets both be alright -
cause i'll become so much stronger -
as i reclaim my birthright -

A little while longer - please dont hold back a single kiss -
im begging and pleading and asking you this -

A love thats so kind, so special, and real -
a love of that kind which has helped me to heal -

You've always been there -  before i was aware
Like no other before - gave me love and then more -

Youve always been good - like none before could -
and i'll ask you to stay - if you say that you would -

You know where i am - all about being "ma'am" -
but im still here with you - and i'm still being true
for all that you gave - i'll take to the grave - 


A little while longer, as long as you can -
still whisper "I Love You" and make a new plan -
Please come here and stay -
maybe we can still play -

while love can still last - like all of our past -
im still hoping,  and loving, and holding my heart -
still crying, and praying, while i make a new start -

that you'll still be here with me, plain and clear as you see -
I'll love you till day breaks, and next day, and all - 
I'll love you in spring, and in winter, and fall -   
and i'm still Loving you, as i've answered my call -

Just a little while longer, please Love, stay awhile,
please hold me and kiss me while i go thru this trial -
More than a great Love, much more than just friends -
we've always shared more than all the rest still contends -

I'm loving you now, and loving you then -
im loving you tommorow -
My love only bends -
and looks past the sorrow -

Like a tree in the wind -
must bend or will break -
Its not just our love - but our life's here at stake -
Like all of the things we've given and lost
there's no selling price - no telling the cost -

With hope and with strength
and with Grace in our lives,

A little while longer, is the fuel that still drives -
still giving me hope - while i stumble and curse -
and feeling you gone - can't feel any worse -

Just a little while longer, so please dont go away -
Gonna Love you tomorrow, more than all of today.
Just a little while longer, and you'll see me for sure,
Finally becoming - more real and pure -
Finally becoming - what more could i possibly ask -
the beautiful undertaking of such glorious a task -
I could'nt possibly think, of what could help us be stronger,
if you simply could say -

"A little while longer"....

Loving You Always, My Love...


Annagirl

That is so touching and beautiful Annagirl.

"a little while longer" is what you want and need. but it is also right for her, you are the same wonderful person you always were. You still are what she loved in "her man."  The same spirit and heart and soul remain. I wish you both love and happiness.









beth

Existing relationships, especially with SO's who have played such an important role in our lives are perhaps the hardest hurdles to overcome, but in the end, it must be realized how long we ourselves have had to work it all out and how relatively short a time they have had.

They themselves must come to accept, or not accept, their new role and social view of the realities of the life they must accept if they choose to remain with us and for them, the adjustment is as hard or harder to accept them it is for us.  We must always remember that when dealing with them.

Adaption to a "lifestyle" so contrary to what they had envisioned and wanted is not easy, as we all know so well.  We must work with them and try to understand them as much as we wish them to work with and understand ourselves.

I know it would be far better for myself and much easier and quicker to achieve my own goals if I were to just throw up my hands and go my own way without her who has endured so much over the last few years, but that would be akin to turning my back on an important part of myself.

I choose instead to allow her time to make her final decision before making any decisions of my own in this matter.  It would appear that she is beginning to make adjustments to redefining her relationship to me and our roles toward each other, but I still have no idea if she can actually do this and be secure in the new relationship, but I must wait for her final decision on this before making my own regarding her.

It is just one of those things which requires what seems to be more patience and understanding then we actually have, but needs to be done in order to feel as well as possible about ourselves in the end and as long as she remains, though her feelings often stress me terribly, I must keep in mind her own stress and how it affects her actions toward me I will continue to appreciate her feelings and work with her to see it through.

 "You still are what she loved in "her man"

I would have to disagree with that Beth,  I am no longer any resemblance of what my own wife loved in "her man".  While it can be said that what drew her to me in the first place were the qualities I now embrace openly, I was a very different person before, much of what I was scared and terrified her, as it was often against her emotional ability to comprehend, her politics and personal beliefs, but she found an excitement in that and a close personal  bond with the SO's of those I worked with,and many of the qualities and "lifestyle" I embraced were so very different from anything I would accept now.  In short, much of what she loved is more enhanced now, but I am in no way or would want to be what she so long ago fell in love with, as much of what I was, and the people who surrounded me then no longer exists.  The total package has been altered, and it was the previous total package which excited and drew her while the new package is not one she would have accepted at the time we met.

Then to, one must understand that a Lesbian relationship is not her core nature, she enjoyed touching and feeling the hard, highly defined body and the hard straightforward, uncompromising nature of me, and knowing I "belonged to her".  She now finds the softer body, the feel of breasts against her and the more unsure, and willing to compromise nature uncomfortable and not satisfying to her emtional and sexual needs as a woman.

Hauntingly beautiful... albeit sad.

Beautiful