A lot of people say they don't get emotionally involved in the theory to their srs date. However, in my case, I beg to differ.

I was crying last weekend at the fact that the reality is more present to me with each passing day then it ever was.

I walk by my half way packed suitcase each morning, look at my plane tickets sitting on my desk inside my red folder.

I realized I am closed to my 6 week Pre-OP bloodwork submission, then it will be my 3 week Hormone Halt, then surgery itself.

I get really emotional like a cry of happiness. Maybe im being a big cry baby, but I cry really easily.

Tik Tok on the clock! 2 months 15 days

Enjoy the anticipation. These are indeed moments to savor and to record.

The night before your SRS, don't be surprised if you become a little nervous, ("Is this the right thing?")  That, too, seems to be a very normal part of the process that passes very quickly.

Have a big smile ready for the anesthesiologist when he asks, "Can you shift over to the guerney?"

And enjoy the ride to the OR.

Robyn
Like it was yesterday

I think where you and I differ the most is you are a much better packer and organizer.  My suitcase was in the closet until the night before.  I did have my plane tickets at that time, but I hadn't printed them out yet. 

Besides that, it was emotional for me too.  The closer it got, the bigger the wave of emotion would roll over me.

Yes, it is really going to happen Sara.

I'm not really emotionally wrapped about my date at all even though I'm just a week after you, Sara.  I do, however, get a little smile on my face as I get my things together and prepare for my trip.  I got my two cases of lube, baby wipes, a new netbook, still trying to find hibiclens.  Perhaps, as the time draws nearer, my feelings may change.  Really, I just want to get it over with so I can get on with my life.  I need a new job (lotsa fun there  ), I want to put together a little recording studio so I can get my stuff up on Youtube and, if everything works out, maybe I'll be fortunate enough to release a bit of tension with a good lookin' dude    I don't know, perhaps it's an age thing or maybe it's just me.

Hi SaraR

You are allowed to cry, because as you said "like a cry of happiness" you realize that what you are going to do will bring you immense joy for the rest of your life.

Leading up to my to my surgery date.  I was to busy working on multi million dollar railway bridges and viaducts to be worried about my surgery.  However the only worry I had was ensuring that I had the bank cheques to pay for my surgery, hospital and the anesthesiologist.

When I arrived at the hospital with my friend, I was sitting in the passenger side my car (driven from one suburb to another suburb, which took about 20 minutes) and I was thinking about what I was going to do, the consequences and even a slight hesitation on my part.  This did not even take a couple of minutes. This was the first time and last time that I ever questioned myself about what I was going to do.

I walked in to the hospital with my friend, got settled, my friend left and the next day, I was being operated on.  If I was going to do it again I would enjoy the anticipation of the up and coming surgery, shed a tear or two and I would skip into the hospital with a smile on my face.

I have said it before and I will say it again, I have never ever regretted what I have done and I will always be grateful to my surgeon.

Kind regards
Sarah B

Quote from: Kristyn on June 23, 2010, 12:07:48 AM
I'm not really emotionally wrapped about my date at all even though I'm just a week after you, Sara.  I do, however, get a little smile on my face as I get my things together and prepare for my trip.  I got my two cases of lube, baby wipes, a new netbook, still trying to find hibiclens.  Perhaps, as the time draws nearer, my feelings may change.  Really, I just want to get it over with so I can get on with my life.  I need a new job (lotsa fun there  ), I want to put together a little recording studio so I can get my stuff up on Youtube and, if everything works out, maybe I'll be fortunate enough to release a bit of tension with a good lookin' dude    I don't know, perhaps it's an age thing or maybe it's just me.

Thank you all for feeling kinda how I feel in theory. For me at the same time, I am chased by really hot guys but I am afraid to even engage because I don't want to tell them I have a skin tag. Therefore, I cannot wait til I get my surgery so I can remotely like a normal life in that sense. You have no idea how many cute guys I got to kiss and I wish I could of had them as my boyfriend knowing full well they wanted me and I wanted them but had to forcefully reject them.

Believe it or not, also my biggest joy and happiness is walking amongst history in the recovery house to say hey, ive been there! Oddly enough it doesn't even compare to stepping into a new country or what not! I really want to visit that area because of my knowledge of knowing that the care is extraordinary.

I never heard someone come back from Montreal and say omg the nurses were terrible etc.. It's always been OMG the best time of my life!

I might get the major "Butterfly to Stomach" effect when I stumble inside the residence! However, at the same time, my time is up, the time is now, I want to be free to be able to wear clothes and not worry about slippage. It's not the fact that I spontaneously erect anymore, its that my general area is so dead that it is beyond mushy and slips for being mushy. How's that for size? I want to especially attend the beaches in a bikini or close to type wear and not worry!

Kristyn, the hibiclens stuf you can get at Shoppers Drug Mart, but you really have to ask your pharmacist for it, I ended up getting this.. because its the only closes CHG there was. Its not over the counter, but you also don't need a rx for it, the pharmacist hold it in their little room.

Its not Dixedin 4 nor Hibiclens but its another brand, remember.

Hi SaraR
I follow your story on youtube. seems like everyone is here also. best of wishes to you on trip and thanks for the help.

I found the months leading up to surgery a real emotional roller coaster.  My feelings were all over the place – calm and excited and anxious and organized and happy and worried (that it wouldn't happen) and so on.  I didn't pack early because I was afraid I'd be sitting on my front steps with my suitcases for the two weeks before surgery.  I tried to pace myself, but it was hard work.

I never had doubts that it was the right thing, but doubts would be normal for any life-altering decision – which is what GRS is.  My biggest concern, and perhaps my only concern, was that something would happen to prevent the surgery.  I was really paranoid about it.

Enjoy the anticipation, Sara.  And the hot guys will still be there when you have the right stuff to please them with.

- Kate

PS: I got Hibiclens at K-Mart.  I had to ask the pharmacist, but it isn't prescription.  I don't know why they keep it behind the counter.

Quote from: K8 on June 23, 2010, 08:10:46 AM
I found the months leading up to surgery a real emotional roller coaster.  My feelings were all over the place – calm and excited and anxious and organized and happy and worried (that it wouldn't happen) and so on.  I didn't pack early because I was afraid I'd be sitting on my front steps with my suitcases for the two weeks before surgery.  I tried to pace myself, but it was hard work.

I never had doubts that it was the right thing, but doubts would be normal for any life-altering decision – which is what GRS is.  My biggest concern, and perhaps my only concern, was that something would happen to prevent the surgery.  I was really paranoid about it.

Enjoy the anticipation, Sara.  And the hot guys will still be there when you have the right stuff to please them with.

- Kate

PS: I got Hibiclens at K-Mart.  I had to ask the pharmacist, but it isn't prescription.  I don't know why they keep it behind the counter.

It probably contains enough to drug you out. Thus the reason behind the counter. It's weird because K-mart doesn't exist in Ontario anymore. The old K-Mart as been taken over by zellers. I've yet to see a K-mart in any of the citys I have went too.

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Quote from: laineyjain on June 23, 2010, 08:01:13 AM
Hi SaraR
I follow your story on youtube. seems like everyone is here also. best of wishes to you on trip and thanks for the help.

Thanks for following my Story!

SaraR

Possibly. But I'm pretty certain a lot do.

Nice to hear that, along with everything else, you are a sensitive, emotional human with real feelings.

More like you girl.

Quote from: K8 on June 23, 2010, 08:10:46 AM
PS: I got Hibiclens at K-Mart.  I had to ask the pharmacist, but it isn't prescription.  I don't know why they keep it behind the counter.

Got mine on Amazon took 2 days to receive

Quote from: Jessica.C on June 23, 2010, 01:34:50 PM
Got mine on Amazon took 2 days to receive

I just ordered a 32oz bottle from someplace in New York.  Apparently they don't sell hibiclens in Canada anymore.

Hey, we had an earthquake here 5.5 mag which was felt as far as Ohio and Vermont.  Did you feel anything?  I was standing in my washroom when I heard a low rumble which I thought was something being rolled down the hallway as they are working on the apartment across the hall.  Then the shaking started and the walls creaked!!!  It lasted about 15 seconds!  I'm still shaking and that was over an hour almost two hours ago!

Sara, did you feel it?

Quote from: Kristyn on June 23, 2010, 02:10:12 PM
I just ordered a 32oz bottle from someplace in New York.  Apparently they don't sell hibiclens in Canada anymore.

Hey, we had an earthquake here 5.5 mag which was felt as far as Ohio and Vermont.  Did you feel anything?  I was standing in my washroom when I heard a low rumble which I thought was something being rolled down the hallway as they are working on the apartment across the hall.  Then the shaking started and the walls creaked!!!  It lasted about 15 seconds!  I'm still shaking and that was over an hour almost two hours ago!

Sara, did you feel it?

Holy ->-bleeped-<- i Knew it!! felt it in Cleveland!!

Quote from: Jessica.C on June 23, 2010, 02:29:05 PM
Holy ->-bleeped-<- i Knew it!! felt it in Cleveland!!

YIKES!!!  Was it strong?

Quote from: Kristyn on June 23, 2010, 02:33:02 PM
YIKES!!!  Was it strong?

yeah we felt it in Timmins as well, the we were evacuated from our office.

its not good, BC's volcano might erupt after so many years, or another tsunami along the california lines, I know it started in Cali 7 days ago. and its not cool that so far Canada had the strongest wave of it... apparently it was only 19KM deep which is not that far.

And hopefully another volcano doesnt emerge there, im guessing the montreal clinic probably felt it strong too

Quote from: SaraR on June 23, 2010, 06:47:31 AM
You have no idea how many cute guys I got to kiss and I wish I could of had them as my boyfriend knowing full well they wanted me and I wanted them but had to forcefully reject them.

Yes Iv a good idea, but that will all change when you have your surgery, cute guys fully excepting you as a woman, a nice feeling.

I really only got very nervous about 2weeks before my surgery, my Mother did most of the organising, kept telling me I was doing the right thing, I got butterflies in my stomach the night before, the next morning my surgery was put back till 2PM in the afternoon, just before I went under the anesthetic my Mother and Father and 2brothers where at my bedside, my Mother just squeeze my hand whisper to me ''its all for the best'' my Dad just hug me, see you in a while princess.
Iv never regreted it, its a very very emotional time, now 2months time Im getting married, another very emotional day for me, a very big deal for any woman getting married, I get to be a princess all over again.
p

Soon you'll be crying because it hurts like hell and you have twp more hours until your next pain meds and the nurses won't give you more. I found the first night post op was the worst so far and things have gotten better every day since. Night is a more painfull time than day. The worst thing is missing friends and family though. Of course it hurts, its major surgery, but I don't regret it for a second... I do look forward to not gurting anymore though! Lol!

Quote from: Wendy1974 on June 24, 2010, 06:38:12 AM
Soon you'll be crying because it hurts like hell and you have twp more hours until your next pain meds and the nurses won't give you more. I found the first night post op was the worst so far and things have gotten better every day since. Night is a more painfull time than day. The worst thing is missing friends and family though. Of course it hurts, its major surgery, but I don't regret it for a second... I do look forward to not gurting anymore though! Lol!

Im not relatively scared of the pain, everyone is tolerated differently. Some said BA was horrible pain for me it wasnt, but when I had my wisdom tooth removed OMG i cried and screamed as the pain was throbbing

Remember to drink those liquids it will make things better. Especially if your body is dehydrated the pain will be stronger since your body's water mass helps healing.

I wish I was there, id give you a hug in theory if you felt like it hahaha

Quote from: pretty pauline on June 23, 2010, 06:05:35 PM
Yes Iv a good idea, but that will all change when you have your surgery, cute guys fully excepting you as a woman, a nice feeling.

I really only got very nervous about 2weeks before my surgery, my Mother did most of the organising, kept telling me I was doing the right thing, I got butterflies in my stomach the night before, the next morning my surgery was put back till 2PM in the afternoon, just before I went under the anesthetic my Mother and Father and 2brothers where at my bedside, my Mother just squeeze my hand whisper to me ''its all for the best'' my Dad just hug me, see you in a while princess.
Iv never regreted it, its a very very emotional time, now 2months time Im getting married, another very emotional day for me, a very big deal for any woman getting married, I get to be a princess all over again.
p

Aww Pauline, I love your story about your Dad saying that . I wish my Daddy would say stuff like that to me.

I am very emotional at times, my consult with Dr. Mcginn was one of those times, because of my medical conditions i did not think i would qualify for surgery, she reassured me that i could, i gave her a big hug and the flood gates opened, then again the next day when i scheduled the date and paid my deposit, i am sure i will be a wreck in the month or so leading to my surgery next May.

I live in Cleveland too and wondered what it was, missed the news last night.

Paula