Quote from: Kristoph on May 20, 2010, 05:41:09 AM
As some have known from my last topic in the Christianity topic, I sometimes don't feel right in my relationship with God. I've never felt right with Him ever since I came out as bisexual. Ever since then I have been questioning on what God thinks of me and if He hates me or what. I would pray more often but rather than seeing it as a pleasure I see it as a chore. I feel like I need to be spiritually just right in order to even talk to God. I rarely pray because of this. I don't feel God's spirit in me anymore. I don't know if it's because God took it away or if it's my own self pushing it away because of guilt or whatever the reason.

I've felt like this for a while until a couple days ago when it just got way worse

I had known that supposedly in The Bible there was a verse that was used when talking about Transsexuality. I was so afraid to read it that I didn't bother reading it. I just told myself every time I doubted "Why would God hate transsexuals? They were born that way for a reason. He made them. I'm sure He's A-ok with it" And then I was reading around the boards here on Christianity and I think I found the verse. I read it without looking for it but I just wanted to read it once and for all

I don't know if reading it did me any good because the verse went something like this

"Men shall not dress in women's clothes and women shall not dress in men's clothes. The Lord detests these people"

Or something like that...

After I read that I felt utterly crushed...I..I don't know what to think about that. I try to please God so much but I feel like I always fail. And now I read this and feel that God hates me if I continue to be transgender...

I mean..I've never really cried over being transgender before but right now I feel like I could if I let myself. Maybe. But that verse just....it hurt so much to read it. I'm spiritually miserable right now. I feel like I can't pray because if God hates me that much I feel like He'll ignore my prayers.

I don't know what to do....I've tried to go back to living as Female but I'm so miserable when I do. One of my pleasures in this world is when I can live as Male whether it be online or in real life. I feel like it's my true self. And I don't understand why God would be mad at me for it.

I'm sorry for the rant but I'm hurting so bad right now..I just need a shoulder or something to lean on. Anything will do. I just feel so lost..

If you are a man that appears to everyone around you to be female. you have rights to promises that God has given to Eunuchs. some are born eunuch..

If you are a female that appears to everyone around you to be male. you have rights to promises that God has given to the bearn woman because you don't have a womb to bear children as well as eunuch because some are made eunuchs of them selves.

I have had redefine everything that I was told and it has been a hard road. Don't think for one minute that God does not understand how you feel. the body (churches) that represent God has truly made it hard for God to show how he really feels about is creation.
everything that happen in the old testament was done to assure that the birth of Christ came to pass so don't look to far down on God. there would be no salvation with out it. God made promise that he would restore everyone that died even enemies.