'Things can always get better'....... I hate that statement. Think about how stupid that sounds. Of course it can, it can always get better until you are at the top of the got better heap. What then? Things can only get worse. On the other hand....

'Things can always get worse'..... Same thing. It gets worse until you are the last person that things just can't get any worse for. Not a bad position to be if you think about it. It can only get better.

It's like the glass half full or half empty. IT"S a glass with water in it. Nothing more or less......  There's water in it, that's what matters.

Wanting to get rid of everything, or purging, is wanting to stop anything and all things from making you feel bad. But it is also a bad sign.
The fits of laughing is almost the opposite. It can be a good sign.

A therapist can help. Getting on the right meds can help.

If it gets to the point that you think you are going to be suicidal, go to Emergency at the closest hospital. You will get help.

I've been were you are. I know how you are feeling. I wish I could just do something to make it go away.  Every time I see your avatar, I read the little 'I will make you dance'. Makes me smile. I always look forward to your posts and so do others.

Please don't make it 'official'.

Virginia,

Yes, please don't make it official. You are very insightful, and intelligent. There aren't all that many people like that in the world. Also very funny, I don't know you at all, but I really like your sense of humor. I'd like to know you though. I feel down way more often than I feel up. I'm not going into it all, because you know. I get into sobbing fits that seem like they'll never stop, but then, mercifully, I sleep.

Dancing is fun. It's also a good emotional boost. I'll go push the furniture in the living room out of the way, and go dance for awhile. You should too. Or atleast smile. From one girl to another, you are beautiful. Inside and out. Please don't give up.

Aimee

I couldn't tick any box as I did get depressed because of my gender dysphoria but now I don't because I am pretty much transitioned and my life is soooooooooooo much better (spoken of in other posts).

So my answer to the question would be yes I did, very much and didn't want to get out of bed in the morning but now I do and my life is full. It was my gender dysphoria that caused the depression.

Stardust

I used to get depressed when I tried to be a guy but now Ive accepted Im trans, things are a whole lot more exciting and wonderful. Eostrogen makes me happy and I giggle a lot. Its definately a female giggle and I love being able to giggle and laugh as a woman. As a guy I get all depressed and think about suicide...Thank God Ive accepted myself and I enjoy life now.
My Master says I should use my depression and guilt and channel it into hate and anger. This will make me powerful. Sometimes I wonder if my Master has my best intentions at work. One day I will slay my Master and then I will be the Master. Hehe.

Quote from: spacial on June 08, 2010, 03:06:20 AM
Most of my life, I've had mood swings. I call them my high, my flat and my down.

This.

I spend about 95% of the time in the "flat" - essentially feeling nothing, living life one day at a time.

Occasionally the "high" comes along, and life seems golden - for a short while. I tend to do and say things that i'll likely regret later, like a manic-depressive person in their manic phase.

And occasionally the "down" comes along, and flattens me. The most recent time was GID related, and i went to a very dark place for awhile. I have various coping mechanisms, most of which are really bad for me.

My mom is nuts - shes bipolar and who knows what else. Maybe some of that was passed down to me.

My depression and my dysphoria seem to be getting worse just lately. I need out of this house, I need to move into my own space. Unfortunately it's most definitely easier said than done. Got my referral letter through for my psychotherapy the other day and sent the forms off today, so hopefully the wait won't be too long.

I have noticed that my depression tends to take the form of intense apathy accompanied by an intense sense of dysphoria.

To explain this a bit better, I can be in a state where I don't care about the consequences of my actions, even if they are extremely risky because my life feels useless or alien to myself.  Particularly when I was in jr. high, there were instances where I inhaled chemicals, even though I knew they had a significant risk of death.

Lately, I'm accepting that I am trans, taking medication, and seeing my therapist.  I would have to say that I am starting to feel worlds better because of those things.  I also have other stuff that can be related to depression like Aspergers, mild OCD, ADD, and anxiety.

Thank you all for your replies, input, votes and support

Hopefully this thread has helped others as much as it has helped me

I've struggled with depression too, it comes and goes. How many people have found that antidepressants actually work? I have been on cipralex, clomipramine, and another kind, and I'm not too sure if they really did anything for me. Besides, it's not like a few pills can make the issue(s) go away. And antidepressants made me feel worse sometimes because of the stigma of those who take antidepressants. Definitely not something you want to advertise.

Chrissi

Quote from: Miniar on June 11, 2010, 06:31:01 AM
I ticked the "sometimes I don't want to get out of bed" and "I deal with it".

Like any other stubborn "bloke" I just clench my teeth and go "no I'm fine".

I ticked the same and I cry myself to sleep, Miniar, what you said was me up until I started to admit to myself that I am not your everyday "bloke" since then things have started to go better, but I still deal with it on a day to day basis, though, finally sucked it up and talked to my GP who promptley put me on something to control it, time will tell how it goes

Hugs,

Tali

Depression affeacts me in a lot of ways, I can be happy one minute and the next I'm down in the dumps. It has gotten bad enough to wear I wanted to cut and have cut here and there. I don't know how to explain it it's weird to me heh. But I do try to keep myself busy so I wont get all down and what not.