So I talked to my GP the other day about my feelings of apathy and self doubt, emotional rollercoaster, high highs and low lows, I've never told anyone before, nearly told her I felt I was in the wrong body, but she seemed out of her depth, in terms of watching a grown man break down in tears, anyway i'm rambling, I fall into the category of severe depression and anxiety, I've been referred to a psychiatrist and it has been recommended I see a psychologist.
Anyway, not sure why i'm posting this but it was just an enormous weight off me to say to someone "I need help".
Not sure if i'm ready to broach the topic of transgender with a therapist yet but I finally feel like i'm moving forward for the first time in a really long time.
I guess I just wanted to thank everyone here for their support and advice and say to anyone who is keeping everything inside to tell someone.
Sorry for the long post
-Tali

P.s mods, not sure if this is in the right section so feel free to move it if required.

I believe the appropriate advice is "in for a penny in for a pound."

There really is little point in wasting a psychiatrist or psychologists time by not telling them the whole story.

Well done for asking for help. I understand why you may not have chosen to tell your GP, but you owe it to both yourself, and indeed to those who treat you to level with them from the word go otherwise they will waste endless hours having to dig around looking for the cause of the depression when the truth is you already know!

So well done - but please do be honest, and then you will get help.

Hi Jenny,
Thanks for the advice, I know you're right, and as you say, in for a penny in for a pound.
Besides given that i'm on public health (Australia), so just because the DSM test says i'm severely depressed and at high risk, I still have 14+ weeks to wait to be seen by anyone, great letter though - Dear [insert name] thanks and good luck or you can pay through the nose!
So i'm still depressed, now i'm just angry too.
Thanks again for the advice,
Love
-Tali

Well - no point in going back to the GP, so just promise yourself that you will level with she shrinks when you see them - 14 weeks will pass surprisingly quickly when the prize at the end of the wait is your promise to yourself to finally tell someone and get things moving in the right direction at last.

Perhaps make yourself a calender, like the old time prisoners used to do, and count off the days until you can start your release process.

Good Luck.

Hi Tali,
You OK Hun? You know you can always pm me. I'm surprised the GP didn't prescribe an antidepressant. You can go back and ask since it is 14 weeks. Remember for you the TG and depression are linked ,the GP doesn't know that as she doesn't know you are TG. And no reason to tell her. You can go into the Beyond Blue website to get information that will help you deal with the GP. She in my regard has failed in her treatment. Great news that you have a referral to the Psych's, 14 weeks is pretty quick in Adelaide . Expect the follow up to be much longer , I've seen a year quoted for TG issues in Adelaide.

In the mean time do some self psyche, why are you depressed, what is triggering it, etc. OK I know (Oh I know) it's hard but it does help. What are the impediments. What can you live with. What cannot you live with? How can you adapt?
I found it really quite "easy" in the end, I can live happily as Cindy. And that's a full stop. But it is NOT the same for everyojavascript:void(0);ne.

And it's a struggle but once you face the dragon you can defeat it. And it gets to be fun in the end, but I'm weird .

Just a quick interrupt Tali;
Jenny, 4C this morning and again tomorrow, but 15C in the afternoon. I went out for my morning jog at 6am, foolish girl. Us Aussies invented the Ugg boot, sheep wool lined booties, I've now invented the Ugg knickers . Not sure if they will be a big item in Veronica's Secrets Stores

Dear Tali,
Take care

Cindy

Hi Talitha

Just want to remind you that there are people on this website, that will help you if they can and will listen to what you have to say.  They will suggest things that you could do to help you sort out your problems.

If you do not want to tell anyone that is fine, if you want to move interstate, where there are more services available for you then that is what you need to do, but only you can decide what you need to do to achieve the things you want.

However it is much better to tell someone, because it will help you clarify what you need to do and that is to achieve peace in your life.

All the best for the future and take care.

Kind regards
Sarah B
PS
Hi Cindyjames

You want style!!  I give you style

Hug boots, two pairs of swimsuits and a T shirt,  With the temperature outside a -5C.  Thats how I front up for the morning slog session of trying to find where the black line goes.

"Ugg knickers ", what a scream 

Jenny, thanks for the advice and kind words.
I love the idea of a calender, as for the TG issues, it will be discussed, it has to be.

Cindy, thanks for the reply, i'm o.k. (its a long and complicated story, but I am o.k)
The doctor has been great and she did prescribe an antidepressant (see above falls under complicated!)
I have been doing a great deal of self psyche and soul searching, which is what prompted me to talk to the doctor.
Not sure where to go or what to do at the moment so i'm trying to follow the advice from beyond blue and push myself to be human, do things I enjoy, or used to enjoy or not sure... Hobbies interests family friends health etc
Anyway i'll pm soon and as for the ugg knickers i'd patent that, i'd buy them!
Love to you both, and many thanks for you're advice
-Tali