Hello everyone. I was a member here some time ago and left for many reasons that are now no longer issues for me. I just want to have a place where I can share and perhaps help others like me.

For the record, I am post op, orchi that is. I know that can be controversial to say that I am post op but that is how I think of myself. I can't hope for further surgery now unless gobs of money fall from the sky and my family situation changes. So I live as who I am and am treated as who I want to be which is most of what I needed.

I am a model airplane designer and author of two trans related books. I won't plug them here, I just wanted to say that I wrote them.

Mostly, I am sort of a recluse because while I pass pretty well, there isn't any reason or place to go other than my house. I work at home and mostly it is me and my cat. My wife isn't really my wife anymore but a close friend now. We do share a nice friendship. My adult daughter has accepted me after some time away.

Mostly, though I am lonely and wish to be in touch with other trans people. I live across the street from another transwoman but we don't mix well. She is straight and I am not. Both of us are late transitioners but we couldn't be more different. She is outgoing and dates while I stay here in the house.

Maybe, I can find more companionship here at Susan's again.

Maggie

Welcome back Maggie 

Hi, Maggie.  I could learn a lot from you, welcome back (although I wasn't here when you were here before).  I'm 54, been in denial most of my life, married 31 years with 3 kids, and recently began this journey in earnest.  Wife knows, but even I don't know what my ultimate goals are, although I have a pretty good idea.  Big heart-to-heart with the wife coming up.  BTW I am into model airplanes in a big way (control line), and a few other things as well.  Dunno if those interests would survive transition, but I'm open to possibilities.  At this point, trying to learn all I can, and figure out exactly where I want to go.  I just know I need to be who I am, and I canNOT go back to the grey life of denial I knew before.  Whatever that means, is whatever that means.  I hope we can be friends... I very MUCH want/need to hear about what late-onset transition is like...

Welcome back Maggie. It's always great to see people come back and chat. May I ask if you went by MaggieB the first time around?

Quote from: Nero on July 21, 2010, 08:33:48 PM
Welcome back Maggie. It's always great to see people come back and chat. May I ask if you went by MaggieB the first time around?

Thank you all!

Nero, yes, I did go by MaggieB before.

Hi Maggie, it's been awhile. Welcome back.

A big welcome back maggie....

Beni

Welcome back! =)

Hi Maggie. I hope you're back because things are better, not worse. Welcome back, in either case.

Hi Maggie...please tell me what you mean by 'not straight'?

Hi Maggie, welcome back. Hope things are looking up for you.

Quote from: lilacwoman on July 22, 2010, 05:14:41 AM
Hi Maggie...please tell me what you mean by 'not straight'?

I was being sensitive to the fact that as a transwoman I am attracted to women. My neighbor is attracted to men. That makes me not straight, a lesbian. I find this to be very difficult as it means I am a minority in a minority. It makes it doubly hard to find any possible mate. My wife and I are now celibate which is OK for her but really difficult for me. Yet, one of our agreements is that I don't date so I guess that it isn't a really big problem.

Alyssa, things are better for me and mostly the massive emotional storms are gone. Now life is smooth and simple just lonely at times. We don't talk about my status as a former lover and have managed to become close friends. That was incredibly difficult but my wife made a huge effort to understand and I allowed her to have her process which was at times very painful.

Colleen, I was where you are at least to the extent that I suffered though a period of uncertainty as to what would become of me in the transition. I am not one for advice much but I can say that it is at least possible that one can have some semblance of a pleasant life after it. I wish you the very best in your journey.

Thanks to all who welcomed me back!

Maggie

Welcome back Maggie.  I missed you, girl.  I hope you are in a better place now.