I feel lost in space and time, as if I have no true direction to the destination that I need to go. I know what I want, but I don't have the strength to get there. Really, I feel tired all the time.

I want to lose eighty pounds, but I keep putting it off until tomorrow. I feel disgusting, old, and really messed up. I want this turning point, a new direction to my life to put me in the correct position to achieve what I want within this year.

Has anyone felt this way, and how can I solve it?

yes i have , and kinda am , but the difference is , i know what i want , just have no idea how to do it. but since you do know a way then you only have to push yourself to it no matter how hard it is, keeping in mind that time is insanely precious , more than we could ever feel it is , every second wasted is a big loss
but yeah , i've done that millions of times , things that are difficult to do and/or i have low expectations about it for any reason , i usually keep delaying it  and every day i say i'm gonna start/do it tomorrow , and eventually i have deeply regretted every single thing that i handled that way

Make the plan. Write it down. Start. Putting stuff off doesn't do anything. It just makes life worse. It is a big step to start anything. losing weight, getting fit, giving up 'drugs' anything. Starting is never easy. but it makes the second day easier, then the third and so on.

No it isn't easy, for me either. But I refuse to accept failure. It is my mantra. I will not fail. Even during the horror times when the world is crushing, my extremely sharp knife is close by,  nothing is working and the end seems the logical choice, I sing the mantra.  I am not going to let all the people who have insulted me, raped me, hurt me, not accepted me, laughed at me, win. I am Cindy. I will not tolerate hiding or failure. I will walk my path.

Get focused, get angry, not at yourself but at anything which is in your way.  You want to lose weight? When is the best time to start a diet and join a gym? Today. Will it hurt? Yes. Can I do it? Yes. How long will it take? Shorter than if you put it off until tomorrow.

You can do it.

Just try, for me

Cindy

They say a journey of a thousand miles begins with one step. So, get up, go out the door, and go for a walk around the block.

There, you have started.

Tomorrow go a bit further, or walk a bit faster.

That's how I recovered from a bad back injury a few years ago, started off just walking the length of my rather long house, then to the nearest street corner, then the length of the street, then around the block.


As the shampoo ad says, "it won't happen overnight , but it wil happen."