Ok, so way before I planned to I ended up coming out to my girlfriend.
For the last few weeks she's been trying to figure out what's going on with me, why my mood has mellowed out and why I would get laser hair removal. The answer of, "I don't like to shave." while true, just didn't cut it for her.
So I told her a few days ago to write out every reason she loves me, and every reason she'd leave me. After spelling out not to leave anything out, she did work on several quick lists that we'd spend a bit discussing, some things were funny, some not so much.
Finally two nights ago we were laying in bed going over the list when I just really wanted to tell her. She knew at this point that something she had listed was on her list because I had asked some questions that hinted that she had placed it on her list.
I finally just took a deep breath and told her what is going on with me, and what's going to take place. After that I logged onto the site and had her browse around and read some of the posts, showed her some of the transition photo's so she'd have a better idea.
So today I come home from work, and she says she wants to stay together, she doesn't think we'll be able to be in a relationship after I am full time because she's simply not attracted to women, but she wasn't sure, but that she definitely wants to try.
She also promised to stick by me no matter what, even if we break up, and is going to go with me when it's time for surgery.
She is a lot happier as am I, at least for today. I'm hoping she's not just in denial, but we are able to finally talk without this weighing on my mind and what she may or may not do once she found out.
What really surprises me is it really feels nice to just sit and talk with her, discussing clothes and what I may wind up looking like. She insists upon helping me learn proper make-up techniques, and we are going to go shopping for some proper clothes for me next weekend!!!
She's really wanting to take photographs of the whole transition, she is an art major and plans to be an art teacher and thinks she can make a really cool presentation from all of this as well as a pictorial guide from start to finish.
So I'm just really giddy about all of this now, it's almost euphoric to have her so supportive, I truly feel loved and can't believe how much I love her. Even if we both wind up unable to remain in a relationship once I have my female form, I now have a soul mate that will forevermore be my best friend!!
Anyways, it's really late, just wanted to jump on and share this wonderful news with everyone!!!
Oh, and I'm entering my 2nd week since I had laser hair removal and there is no real visual change in my facial hair. They say the shedding phase begins in 2-3 weeks so hopefully next week I can start really working with make up without having that horrible shadow across my face.
Anyways, Love you all and can't wait for tomorrow... it's been so long since I've said that...
I know it's going to get much worse, not all of my family will be supportive, most of hers probably won't understand either. My work still has to be dealt with and there's literally a year and a half minimum of me trying to transition with the awkward in between phase on the horizon.
But for tonight, I am ecstatic!
Samantha
