Not sure if this is right section to post this in so sorry if its not.

Sorry i havent been on in a while guys i havent had a internet connection since i moved.

After alot of thinking and gathering info about hrt & srs i have decided that i want hrt and maybe srs.
Alots happened since i last posted i told my mum that i want to be a woman and she thinks im confussed.
I also feel that i was born the wrong sex when i dress up fem i feel relief and happiness and today i cried not the sad kind of crying the happy kind i felt as if i been trapped in a male gender role for such a long time that i was happy to get away from my male gender role and i felt like i never wanted to go back to the gender male role.

Iv made a appointment to see my gp/doctor friday to tell them how i feel and hopefully get refered to a G.i.c in the uk here.

i know theres alot of risks in hrt and i know theres going ot be alot of pain and hurt to come when i have to break the news to my parents and god knows how im going to do this but no matter how much i love my parents and family i cant live like i do any more.

my next step after i see the doc is to go out as my fem self with my friends.

I got alot of things to do before i can become a woman and be happy i just hope all goes well becuase i cant really face living the rest of my life as a man.hopefully if all goes well i should be able to have hrt and then srs and be a woman by the age of 27 i am 23 now.

when i told my mum how i feel she also asked me if i want to end up alone becuase that will happen if i become a woman.In my views that wont be true but even if it is its a sacrifice im willing to make.

If you are starting to transition at 23, I highly doubt you will be alone for the rest of your life.  Especially based on the way you talk here on the forums.  You seem gentle and that's a good characteristic.  Anyways, I hope all goes well for you and that any future coming out goes successfully.  You sound very determined and that's good.

Melissa

Tammygirl,

You are courageous!  Way to go!  You have goals and are making progress, appointments and everything.  At your age you can be anyone your heart tells you to be.  In a way I am jealous.  I hope you find the peace you are looking for.  I also hope your friends accept the true you.  If not they are not your friends anyway.  I am sure your parents will be tough, but you've come this far.  I hope you find the right way and the right place and time.  In the past few days many have been telling me what I will pass on to you:  You will not be alone with the community here standing by you.

  Kristi

i dont feel very couragous on the inside im scared & nervous and have doubts about a few things but i will get time to discuss the concerns that i have the main thing i worry about it hrt which i want but i worry about blood clotting or heart or kidney problems and or heart problems but as much as im worried about those i am willing to risk it as i couldnt stand living as a man for the rest of my days and also if it works out then it will be worth it for peace of mine and happiness and i know its not going to be easy and i could have to move out of my parents place becuase of my choices but some how i will do it.

If my parents do eventualy accept me then maybe i can stay living at home.I also think getting work will be hard but if worst comes to the worst i can be self employed repairing computers and doing webdesign.

Tomorrow i am going try to go out wearing womans clothes for the first time and then after iv been to the doctors im going clothes shopping.Iv got to try rebuild my waldrobe.

Iv also put some spare money away incase i need it to travel back and forth to the gender clinic.
If and when i do start hrt and my breasts start to grow i may have to hide it untill i come out fully with my parents.

I dont really feel that i should have to tell them right now and get their permission becuase its my body and im over the legal age and i can make my own choices.i could understand if i was 16 and wanted this done then i may have to get their permission.

Also i will have to ask my gp about having kids becuase if i have hrt i understand that i cant have children.

Anways thank you guys for your replys i will let you know what my gp says i just hope i can get the words out of my mouth tomorrow.
iv never ever spoken to anyone oother then my friends face to face about how i feel so i think it might be hard teeling a doctor weather my gp be male or female i just hope they dont judge me.