Congratulations to you, the viewer, on witnessing this wonderful event unfold in the text before you. You are witnessing a very important event in my life even though you're likely a stranger in a different part of the world than I am. The reason this is special is because it's the first time, other than in my own head, that I am acknowledging I am 99% sure I am a transsexual. There I said it, see? You witnessed it. I hope you enjoyed it.
I was born biologically female. But ever since I had a personality, I have always mentally been a boy, and have shown it through my choice in aspects of my appearance. I never really thought anything of it, but I knew it was strange and not "normal" for girls (I use the term "normal" very loosely generally). The earliest event I can remember relevant to my gender was in pre-school where all of us children were going to the bathroom as a group (because that's how it worked back then when we had less disciplined bladders). There was the girl's and boy's bathrooms right near each other. I felt it was more appropriate for me to use the boy's bathroom. I did so, and attempted to use the urinal, but quickly got removed from the bathroom even before I could test the limits of my anatomy.
I have always empathized more with males. If people meet me in a gender neutral fashion, they generally assume I am male. I have traditionally male hobbies, taste in music, taste in dress, movies, etc. I usually don't believe in pigeonholing things like hobbies into gender categories, but I do believe it puts into words something which I have been feeling for a long time. I have known since I can remember. I knew I felt different than other girls, I just didn't know why or if it would go away. Only recently have I managed to put the feelings in perspective enough to conclude that being transgendered is why I feel this way. When asked, I would generally say I am a lesbian, but I never really felt it was me, and never identified with the lesbian community. Only now have I come to realize why that is. But I still want to be sure. But the scariest thing about all of this is disclosing it to those who are close to me. I can't even conceive of how I am going to do that when the time comes.
I apologize for my rambling. I am not usually so loose tongued, and not nearly this dramatic :-P I am glad to be a member of this community, and hopefully I can find out more about myself (either vicariously or otherwise).
