was just thinking about it ,i figured expressing my gender or people's acknowledgment of my gender/state is not really that important to me . on the other hand , physically changing bits of my body might help if only i knew or was sure what would i want to change it to, so i was just curious about what physical state other people  want to settle at , and would gender expression help to ease up dysphoria? (i mean since i'm pretty much doing nothing about it rather than taking a low dose of T-blocker and being irritable all the time , i have no actual experience about both ways)

For me (and I voted in both polls), I just want to have the physical bits that correspond with my gender.  If I could settle at an androgynous looking male I would because that's what feels right to me.  If I could look like that, I'd be a lot happier person.

@eNTROPY

I'm in the process of trying to get a low dose T blocker. The Psyche is being a little stubborn and wants to know more about 'this anger thing'. I just hope between my therapist letter and such, that I don't have to tell my life story again. Even if it is such an exciting story 

Personally, I don't mind my body so much that I would change it permanently since I seem to swing back and forth a bit.    My face is fairly ando though, which I think helps internally; changing my clothes completely changes how I look and feel.  I've learned about myself that the 'rules' of society are often in my head as much as outside of it and I think that's the hardest part for me to overcome.   
I hope that randomness helped and answered the right question

I need an extra option

Personal acceptance of your gender/state

Hard question, but also a good question my dear E.

First off, I feel that Pica's 'added option' would probably work for me best as well.
You see, I already battled the dysphoria flagship and managed to make a deal... I'm at peace with my body now.
At the same time I bind, I have a short haircut and a androgynous/masculine wardrobe.

The first time I cut my hair I was happy. When I looked in the mirror I was happy.
When I first wore a binder I was happy. When I looked in the mirror I was happy.
When random people mistaked me for male or couldn't figure out what I was I just smiled, but that didn't contribute to that initital feeling of happiness I had.
When I take off my clothes in the evening and look at myself in the mirror I'm still happy and realise how lucky I am with the body I have.

I'm not sure if that makes sense, but in other words: the changes I made physicially didn't kill the dysphoria I experienced but rewired my sense of self.

Although I have made small changes, I probably look more masculine in general than I used to  - knowing myself to be androgyne had helped me make peace with the masculine within me as well as the feminine.

in fact it did make me more comfortable and settled to understand that i'm androgyne . that chronic bewilderment and self agony suddenly disappeared and i remember not long ago how happy i was to finally know/ discover/understand or rather accept who i am
option added (sorry it was too late but these days i hardly find time to enjoy my computer x_x)

Hi
   
Being  androgynous keeped me sane ,liveing as a woman & being able to express my self in a way as male i could just not do it ,
Its when you accept your self even if some body parts are extra you can still accept who you are . i did  & enjoyed my work even if i had to come under men in my training .

  Really its about finding your self & some of it has taken years . it has for me yet my past is still about who i am ,
    To me being in the middle was right even tho i have been swinging back & forth , not as in changeing who i am just accepting this ...is... who i am & i can be this way with out being told you are this or that i did not conform & nore will i , thats self assured .
   For too many years you do as your told & then you see you dont have to any more. its , just be you . & no strings attached. you know you are free. thats the freedom i have .

& if that means some (( body )) changes then do it . i have & never ever will i regret that or those changes as we d say that made my day . well it really made my ...LIFE...  thats the difference.
  You know when the time is right . its not a race . so take your time .


...noeleena...

My body is a vessel for my soul.
They say soul is immaterial and unchangeable.

Then it follows that I can do whatever I want with my body, with little change to my "essence", whatever that is.

A few months back, I experimented with magic E pills, and I loved the effects it had, so I think I'll keep doing it until I feel it's enough.

What's most important for me, is what I do with my resources. Like, sure, I'm androgyne. Now what ? And figuring that, and choosing what to do, is what is really interesting.

Personal acceptance, though having a certain type of body is... well it was hard not to choose that one.  If they were checkboxes I would have selected both -- guess I could have gone "other" but oh well.  Physical form ties into acceptance, but I guess accepting my self is where it starts.  I know what I am, even if I can't seem to explain it without rambling on in a verbose fashion.  The next step is to try making my body match...

Personal acceptance is really necessary for most of the other stuff, whether you're androgyne or transsexual.  However, I've already accepted myself and haven't really had any recent issues with that, so I chose the physical, although acknowledgement matters a lot to me too.  I'm not really sure which I would choose if I had to, but I guess I chose physical since most people who know me (at least those I actually talk to) already accept and acknowledge me, as do strangers I pass to.

personal acceptance was a big thing when I was just working out what I am now that I accept who I am and that the treatments I was looking at might not help my body dysphoria,  I love the comments I get regardless of it the intention was insult or due to confusion, when a child says is that a guy or a girl I know I'm passing as me, I look forward to the day when I don't need any padding to fill my bra so to me all of the choices are important be cause they all point to me being me.  so if there was a choice of being true to yourself as most important that is what I'd choose but I'm happy to just be "other" in this poll