Greetings from Hamerikha....
(And excuse the long post)
Well done Steffi, I wasn't allowed out of my bed from the Greenbaum until just before leaving....but don't push it....give yer body the very best chance for healing possible... and good luck with it all.
And I know for sure that here in Scottsdale four of us (tg ladies) this week have been under Dr M for labiaplasty's...how the other's are shaping up.... I have no clue? Or they're not keen to share there thoughts experiences on Susan's org?
So that's at least five of us gals with some form of ongoing surgical reassignment recovery happening this week, and if we dial in Thailand and Canada too..I'd wager thirty plus women with sore fannies right now, sweating and battling on through..lol
Though me being the only UK Brit chick here with an 18 year old fanny conceived ages ago by a long retired pioneering English surgeon proved more of a challenge to revise and bring up to date than expected, my internal urethra was too long and a mess according to Meltzer. So I had to endure a longer time down, and my recovery is more fraught (lucky me)......so I'll not be free of the damned catheter till at least Monday....(Labour day here)...
So here I am on bed-rest still only post-op day three for me, with my new girly parts steadfastly refusing to return to anything resembling more typical and pretty flower petal bits, (which is distressing the hell out of me)...as at the moment I look far worse than how I was on Monday pre any of this new surgery......(How long I now have to wait, to finally see if any improvements have been gained at all)... well of course no one can tell or answer me on that one? The big 'what if' elusive Holy Grail question...??.
(Jeeesus.. this is such a big-ask-n-act-of-faith-n-patience for any women whom are locked into our unique circumstances)...just trying for a shot of best chance of normal life possible....with pretty looking female anatomy!!
I feel many medics conveniently overlook this....with stock answers such as, don't compare yourself to anyone else, you all heal differently, results always vary....and there are never any guarantees... all totally true of course, so its your problem you signed the consent form...
So whatever happens, what will be - will be....the bottom line...its YOU that has then to live with the forever after consequences – while they bank the fees and move onto the next volunteer, guinea pig....
And due to my own (sobbing/crying) low point yesterday, I'm mentally prepared now for the very worst...last nights uber-swelling was my dark angst moment, ground-zero time (so had to get some Lorazepam down to steady the jitters)..... and I just have to accept that it will be weeks of waiting, and apparently I've a haematoma to bleed out also (nice) and will face days of discomfort...before I have any real idea as to what it is I've actually let myself in for this time around, and whether any small gains have in fact been achieved... if any?
(So a fun $35k holiday to the US, this has definitely not been, just a heart-ache trip, ongoing pain and the toughest mental challenge you can imagine....while locked in a hotel room solo watching the hours slowly tick bye....
It was all grim enough last time around during the 1990's, and maybe in yer 30's you're physically better to handle it?... I guess naively I thought this time around (having been through the main SRS before) it would be less traumatic/problematic for me this week as a big girl 52 year old.... (big mistake)...and on that score how wrong I've been!!
But i hope after next Mon to be a bit more mobile...but I did go out grocery shopping when it was cooler this morning with ma fab private N&T Nurse Michele, in her uber-bat mobile Merc today for some survival grocery's...she's such a sweetheart, and is great for boosting my spirits up. And she's well in with the Greenbaum team, so sourced me some more disposable knickers... forget real pants they are too uncomfortable...
So walking the first time around a mall did do me some good, so I'll try farther tomorrow...
I've decided, to help ease the solitude of this months time here for me..,to be ruthlessly honest with what's going on, so will update truthfully as we head through till the 29th.... as I feel that there is no valid reason for any 'mystery'....
And anyone undergoing this process should do so with their eyes fully wide open.... even if my truth is unique to me....
Equally if in 6 weeks time, if/when things for me settle down on my return to the UK and improve and the functional aesthetic results are fantastic (as is alluded to by Meltzer nursing staff frequently.. then I will share the outcome with you all, as I have nothing to hide on that score...either.
So all of you heads up for this in a month or two...the very best of luck!!