Hey all cant believe im finally making serious steps towards this at last...have
been in serious denial for so long but have finally chosen that a life as my
true self where I can be open and have a relationship is better than my life as
a guy who unfortunately cant have an intimate relationship with another man.

I always knew I liked guys but never thought I was gay, but when I ended up kissing
one at a party, everyone told me I was so I adopted that role, but rather poorly
to say the least.

Without going into details im guessing you understand its hard to 'perform' or
even enjoy sex when your being treated like a man...I dont want to be a guy with
another guy because that's just not me(hell i don't want to even use my
doodle!)...

Heres my HRT Progress so far:

Before HRT

2 Weeks HRT

1 Month HRT

I have found a trans friendly psychologist in my area and have begun therapy(actually one listed on this site), she told me in my first session that im definitely trans and should work towards transitioning to the point where I even get to meet the endro for real tests next week ( - seems to be moving faster than from what I hear but I guess she can see I have put a lot of thought into it) Mum asked to come to therapy with me but only knows its about depression/"gay issues" as she would call them from what I have taken(although i could be wrong)

I feel im getting old and I dont want to let my masculinity take any more hold on my body!

Far as my family/friends go thats yet to be seen, im out to my parents but we
dont talk about it(mostly cause i dont bring guys home lol!) but they crack the
occasional joke about it. Im hoping this helps them somewhat with it.

My friends well...my two best GG friends im sure will be cool, they already
treat me as a girl, dont refer to me as any sex and in fact say things about how
lame guy are as if im not one, they love putting makeup on me and I have
bitch/gossiped with them for years(God maybe they already know lol!?).. But my
long time straight male friend I am scared of losing, I dont think he would be
seen out in public with me unless im very passable and I value his friendship so
much so it would hurt a lot to lose him and willing to make that sacrifice.

Well I guess *fingers crossed* i end up passing with continued HRT and parents don't kick me
out - I think thats all anyone could ask for, but I know you dont always get
what you want.

Thanx for reading! Hope to be apart of the community for some time to come!

Jasmin, hi!

We think you are really going to like this website.  Why?  There's lots of information, and it's accurate and objective.  You will find acceptance here and can truly be yourself around us.  There's no pressure on you.  We're courteous to one another here, so you won't finder flamers, haters, trolls or anything like that.  Susan, website owner, won't tolerate them. 

I can understand your feeling old at age 25 regarding your transness, but you are by no means truly old.  If you've decided to actually transition, you're at an almost-ideal age to do it.  We wish you the best. 

Get comfortable, settle in and enjoy the site.

   Lacey

25 old? Lies, I agree with Lacey you are at the perfect age. 

I hope that your guy friend will take it OK and since you have not be chucked out yet I guess it is safe to assume for now you won't suddenly be evicted.

Hope I will get to see a picture of you later on, you have potential to be a beautiful lady! 

Hi Jasmin,

Welcome to our little family. Over 3300 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

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Looking good girl there girl.  But you should really look up at the camera.

Hugs and Love,
Janet

Hello Jasmin,
I'm glad you found the site.
Relax your still young at age 25 and HRT will go along way in altering your body.
As far as friends only time will tell and you will find out who the real ones are.
If your look for friends and or information about gender issues this is the place.
And welcome to Susan's.
Jillieann

Welcome to the site!  Always happy to see another girl! Pix are cute! - Love the hair.

Hey everyone, I seriously thank you very much for the kind words

I've got to stop lurking and start posting as I've read so many wonderful threads that have brought me out of 2 days of bad depression.

Seeing the results other girls are getting at 30 I'm no longer worried about being 25, I should be fine

Seeing my Endro for first time on Monday and a second appointment with the Psych so really looking forward to that and will report back news!

Heck girl! I'm in my early 40's (most think I'm 31 or so)...and I understand the issue of feeling old. But look at it this way, HRT will make you look a little younger and you'll see in time will make you FEEL so much better since you are on the path you needed to take. The rest will follow.
I found this forum to be full of wonderful and supportive people.
Glad you found us!
Stephie

Welcome Jasmin!  I too identified as a gay male, but am exploring the real possibility that I am a straight female.  You will find many helpful people here on this site.