Regrets.
Changing
Not changing
Getting a tember.
Not being me as in my personality.
Not being a loving person like I am now.
If I did regret I scared of never getting back.
My biggest fear is being atracted to men.
My oppintions chaning.
My views ect ect.
My likes and disslikes.
I'm scared full stop.

Anyone else fill the same or felt the same.
And what happped to you after T

Quote from: Hazard "AJ" on September 15, 2010, 06:41:15 PM
Not changing
Not being me as in my personality.
Not being a loving person like I am now.
If I did regret I scared of never getting back.
My biggest fear is being atracted to men.
My oppintions chaning.
My views ect ect.
My likes and disslikes.
I'm scared full stop.

I haven't started T yet, but yeah I get worries too  . My worries are somewhat similar to yours and I left the ones I was most concerned about within the quote. I agree with the biggest fear  I don't know why I'm afraid of that, but yeah I just am  .

Who cares if you start being attracted to men? Honestly, if you are attracted to them you can't help it. I don't like girls right now, but if hormones change my brain, then I'll like girls.

I really have no idea why I'm scared of that most  . Maybe it's just a guy thing  , like how other guys get so defensive when they're assumed gay. Or maybe I'm scared that it'll become just another aspect of my life that I'll be FORCED to disclose....well not forced, but another aspect that might hinder me to be carefree in certain situations.... I dunno  for now I'm just going with "maybe it's just a guy thing".

You shouldn't be scared. I doubt you'll lose interest in girls, so if you're bi, then you won't be forced to date guys, and if you're attracted to men you won't care. And being gay or bi shouldn't stop you from being yourself or carefree. If you're around people who care, you shouldn't be around them.

Yeah I have a rising suspicion I might end up bi  more love to go around eh  . And I agree with the "if you're around people who care, you shouldn't be around them" however, some situations are close to unavoidable and when I'm faced with bigots, I get into HEATED debates  . Another concern overall is that it's scary to think that an "innocent" little hormone could affect the mind in such drastic ways. Not just attraction, but what's mentioned above as well  . Do you girls on E or about to take E get the same worries? Because there have been many guys on here that have changed their sexual orientation after T, hence the big concern.

Well I'm scared of HRT but I'm more excited than anything. The main thing I'm scared of is getting fat lol. I'm aware that some girls end up bi or lesbian but I'm not scared. I don't care what my sexuality is, as long as I'm a girl, I'll be happy. Just so you know, I don't mean to make it sound like you shouldn't be scared of ending up gay or anything. That's fine, you're allowed to be scared. I don't think anyone can say what others can be scared of.

I think, if I ever start T, the thing I'm most afraid of is regret.

Seeing as I'm bisexual, if my sexuality changes I wouldn't really care. I already like both sexes to begin with.

Oh no you didn't seem like that at all. You actually had some sage words there  . I just felt like a dick for sounding somewhat homophobic about myself  . I hope that isn't the way it came across, just scared of the unknown of what's to come. And I suppose you're right, the main thing will be that I'm male regardless of sexuality.

Quote from: Meepit on September 15, 2010, 07:54:21 PM
Oh no you didn't seem like that at all. You actually had some sage words there  . I just felt like a dick for sounding somewhat homophobic about myself  . I hope that isn't the way it came across, just scared of the unknown of what's to come. And I suppose you're right, the main thing will be that I'm male regardless of sexuality.

It does come off a LITTLE homophobic but when you really think about it, you're most likely not homophobic. That's not how I thought of it. Thank you though

Quote from: Devyn on September 15, 2010, 07:50:30 PM
I think, if I ever start T, the thing I'm most afraid of is regret.

Seeing as I'm bisexual, if my sexuality changes I wouldn't really care. I already like both sexes to begin with.

I know how you feel about regret. I'm terrified I'll regret it and realize I'm a boy, but everytime I feel like I'm not trans, all the hate I have for my body etc comes back and reminds me. Like I just despise being a boy. I love boys but I'm not one.

I have nothing aagainst gays ect. But I just can imagen being with a guy. I just can't think of that but people keep sying to me cuz I'm a vergin and never been with either when I don't now for sure. Ect I don't look at men the same way as women. I lobve women I love there bodys looks ect but not on me. I love being mascerling ect. But I just can't think of walking down the stree with. A guy holding hand and deff not in bed. I don't want. A man no were close to that just seems erhh to me. Wither itys now or then. I can imagen being with a man now or me becomeing male and being with a man. I just like the image of a women next to me. I like to be the dombernet one. I think I'm more scared of the emosinal side. Like changes in me as a persson ect I dunno. I'm just scared and fill so messed up right now things r just ->-bleeped-<-ed in my head..
For some reson I don't think of myself as trans I now I am but I don't like to think of myself as trans. Not sure why. I now what I want but I'm afraid. (Does that make sence) I never thought that this would be my life u now. I wish I could have just been happy but I guess we all say that. I fill so selfish. ->-bleeped-<-ing hell.

Sorry abour spelling

I don't really have many fears about starting T.

I'm scared that i'll regret transitioning. I'm scared i'll never pass. I'm also scared that me being trans will put people off relationship wise.

Those fears are pretty small though i'm mostly looking forward to the changes. 

On the subject of sexuality I hope that I like woman more but if my sexuality doesn't change i'll be fine with it. I'm bi but 90% into guys and only 10% into women.
I can undertsand though that if you 100% into women right now that you wouldn't want to be with a guy. I don't see it as homophobic at all, I did when I first read it but after reading what Hazards last post I don't.

I have some big worries about physical changes.  What if me wanting facial hair really is just a phase like everyone tells me?  I'm scared of not getting facial hair as much as I'm scared of getting it!  I guess the same goes for body hair, too, something I'm really sure of right now but second-guess myself about for the future.  I also have terrible acne now, so even if I can get rid of it, I'd have to wonder if T would bring it back or make it even worse.  The only emotional problem I'm worried about is developing a temper.  I'm also worried that a higher sex drive and possible growth down there might make my genital dysphoria worse, because I'll be thinking about it more, and there might be more accidental rubbing, etc. to draw my attention to it.

Even with all those worries, there are things I'm pumped for, without a doubt, even though I'm not in the process of pursuing T right now.  I'd love to have a deeper voice, I'm excited for being able to grow muscle more easily, and I wouldn't complain if my menstrual cycle disappeared.  I'm also looking forward to the facial changes that will make me pass more consistently.  Try to think of the certainties about T that you know you can't wait for rather than the possibilities that frighten you!

Most of my fears revolve around the social aspects...will I be able to fit in with the guys, will I ever be able to find a partner, dealing with doctors and others who know/find out I'm trans.  That kind of thing.  And there is the fear that I'll regret it.  My mom keeps telling me I will, keeps insisting it's a phase (it's been rather for a phase, I think); she says things like I'm not as male as I think I am, etc.  That's when she'll acknowledge it at all.

Well, it is a life-altering decision to be sure. I would say, you'd probably want to have more positive feelings about it than negative (reservations, fears, etc.). If you have more negative feelings than positives, hold out a little longer and see how you feel about it. Talking to other people can certainly help, but there will be some variation. Like some guys have fast, noticeable changes, some it takes years ... some guys grow a lot of facial hair, some not ... some get a deep voice, some don't. There's some relatively standard changes T is supposed to do, but it will be a little personalized because your own body is unique. You could do what I did and try it and still back out before permanent changes happen. Or you can do what some other guys have done and do it only until you get some noticeable changes that you're comfortable with and then stop. It's a big decision either way, but there is some flexibility in it.

Well, I'm not all that scared to be starting (more scared that it'll be forever before I can), but I do have a few fears which I shall share
My facial features changing in unflattering ways (my jaw is square enough already, thank you very much).
That I'll never learn to shave properly
My genitalia forever remaining *cough* INADEQUATE
Not being able to do convincing drag ever again no matter how I try
Not being able to cry like other people say they can't; I worked for years to be able to cry, dammit

I do also worry about my anger and sex drive increasing, as I already have a lot of both, but not enough to consider it a fear, especially with the second one (that's something to laugh about, if anything).  I also dread dealing with my family once changes become noticeable.

I'm more worried about all of the paperwork and stuff that comes along with it.  Though I would love the deepened voice, change in appearance, and other things....If I could have that, I wouldn't be so worried about the name changing or anything of the like. xD

Quote from: Hazard "AJ" on September 15, 2010, 06:41:15 PM
Anyone else fill the same or felt the same.
And what happped to you after T

We're all scared of something at some point about starting T.
I was at a point where I was unsure for the longest time, then I didn't want it. The more hair, the acne, the blood pressure problems it could pose.. Just the risks, and serious consequences.. I didn't want to do something then change my mind later.
But now I got to the point where I can't take it anymore, I need T. I want to be seen as a guy my age, or at least way closer to it. I want the deep voice and chin hair. The muscles, and fat redistribution. I want to look and sound more like a guy, without T I've been avoiding social situations. I can be more of myself with it.
Just take your time, talk it out with a therapist, write the pros and cons down.
It'll be okay.

Okay let me go through the list:

Regrets. - Don't have them
Changing - Have changed, go on changing, but that's okay.
Not changing
Getting a tember. - don't know this word, what's that?
Not being me as in my personality. - personality stayed basically the same, but the rollercoaster and experiences of transitioning has somewhat changed it a bit. 
Not being a loving person like I am now. - this won't change I thing.
If I did regret I scared of never getting back. - My fear as well, but it's not very strong.
My biggest fear is being atracted to men. - My biggest fear was becoming straight or gay as being bi is frigging awesome and I thught it would be a big loss to lose half of the potential partners I could be attracted to. This was what I worried most about. Before I was about equally into both sexes, now I've slided a bit, leaning somewhat more towards guys. I wonder if I'll end up being gay, but I'm not afraid of that any more. It's just like if one day you don't like chocolate any more, you don't worry about it.  A 100% change might be awful though if you're in a relationship.
My oppintions chaning. - They'll change anyway in the course of your life

Someone mentioned being afraid that if the clit grows, it might increase the body dysphoria. To me, the contrary happened. The little guy is still kind of tiny for a penis, but it almost matches the "penis" part of my inner body map now.