Today at the end of my session my therapist told me she would write me my letter this weekend. Going to the endo next week to get the results of my blood work. Hopefully everything checks out and I can finally start. I think I am in shock right now. I had so many emotions rush through me as she gave me the ok. My actual, real physical transition is about to start and I am thrilled beyond words that I am leaving my past self behind and I am sad beyond words that my wife, son, friends and family who all loved that old me will be hurt by my changes. This is something I have to do as I fight for my right to live in this world in the body I should have had all along. I just don't know why I was meant to suffer to get here or why that suffering had to be shared by others.

Quote from: Melody on September 28, 2010, 04:57:13 PMI just don't know why I was meant to suffer to get here or why that suffering had to be shared by others.

Hugs to you, Melody!  So sad that such a happy thing has to be tinged with sadness.  I know just what you mean.  When I brought my wife home from work today, the very first thing she did after coming in the door was break down in sobs for about 20 minutes.  She was inconsolable.  And I can do nothing to ease her pain, short of saying something like "Ok, it was all a horrible mistake."  I feel your pain, because I share it...

Congratulation, Melody.  At least you still have a wife and family.

Just coming out, I lost everything.  But once HRT begins it is the most wonderful feeling.

Thanks Janet and Colleen. I am grateful that I have not lost everything, but sometimes it feels like death from a million cuts instead of one big one. I am losing things in slow motion.

congratz Melody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *pops open the champagne* hehehe

Quote from: Jerica on September 29, 2010, 10:06:22 AM
congratz Melody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *pops open the champagne* hehehe

Thank you very much Jerica! I hope I get as good a result as you are quite beautiful.

Quote from: Melody on September 28, 2010, 04:57:13 PM
I am sad beyond words that my wife, son, friends and family who all loved that old me will be hurt by my changes.

   I felt the same when I told my wife. Maybe they won't be as hurt as you might think. Give them time to meet the new Melody you are becoming.

  My wife and children were very attached to the old me but readily admit the person I am now is far better.

Hugs, Erocse

Wait !! I walked away then thought of something to say.

"They have only become familiar with the shrub that has adorned the front porch over so many years. They have yet to see it blossom."

   I know pretty corny...Huh. but that's you Melody

   Erocse

That's great Melody.
I felt so much better after the first week on HRT.
It did make handling the other problems much easier and more bearable.
Hope it works for you too.
Jillieann

Quote from: erocse on September 29, 2010, 07:13:21 PM
Wait !! I walked away then thought of something to say.

"They have only become familiar with the shrub that has adorned the front porch over so many years. They have yet to see it blossom."

   I know pretty corny...Huh. but that's you Melody

   Erocse

Thanks, I like that. 

Quote from: Jillieann on September 29, 2010, 07:21:35 PM
That's great Melody.
I felt so much better after the first week on HRT.
It did make handling the other problems much easier and more bearable.
Hope it works for you too.
Jillieann

I hope it goes that way for me too.

Quote from: Melody on September 29, 2010, 03:13:52 PM
Thank you very much Jerica! I hope I get as good a result as you are quite beautiful.

Awww thank you! =)