Normally, I advocate for natural organic sources of herbs. vitamins, pills, drugs, foods, etc. That means to avoid synthetic and odd homeopathic sources. I know synthetic can't always be avoided... so maybe this is one case to state:
My hormones are either way out of wack unable to balance or have decided to flip and can't fully get there (left in a poisoned state, maybe). In the case where hormones flip, they seem rarer.. the cases. Maybe not so rare for intersexuals (lets not get into a debate over ambiguity, plz).
Many of my symptoms have already been diagnosed. The diagnosis weighs to render me officially disabled. Besides my disability, the problem is my heart stopped up to 4 times an hour on SSRIs, and we can only blame it in the name of serotonin syndrome. Now there is no doctor. I'm in limbo with the system. Can't get hired by any regular job because of my disability... nobody wants hire a zombie.
Through the years of the zombieness, what's happened is I've seen changes as those report with HRT. Not as much, yet there is a noticeable difference by me. Maybe it's just intersexuality overriding whatever happened. I started to lean towards the hormonal levels have just flipped rather than be imbalanced. My opinion is the zombieness was worst when there was a lack of one and not the other there in time to make up for full awareness. Since the worst, whatever I do and change day by day has helped keep me more and more out of that unipolar blackhole.
Could HRT be a cure? Or could it be a lifelong prescription to get the flip-flop to fully complete as other cases have shown?
I know what's next on doctor's menu for whenever I get rx supervision and whenever i get that doctor assigned. I wonder if I should suggest some kind of hrt to the doctor before we the menu is at that wildly controlled substances.
Don't want more hair thinning or other related typicals.
Consider I'm unipolar... to look at my chest and see something natural and real grow without and fake or synthetic means taken to start this has made me happier. That might seem like "gee whiz" to some, yet it is something worth another day to live and something I'm not embarrassed about.
I'm way past any desire to have a relationship with another her/him/it/whatever. I often want to kill off all my hormones just to stay alive. I think I was mistaken and just need to kill off all masculinity.
I'm not looking for surgery. My body has changed already without. It doesn't matter if I ever reach the ideal image in mind...
..it matters more that I can wake up and in the first 5 mins find something that i can think about that will keep me awake, aware, not zombiefied... and remember i have will to live. I know next life I have what I need. I just need to find the strength to walk to path. I'm sure my will to live is more than what most people have, and what goes around comes around.
Memories, extreme and extraordinary I deal with all the time. When I'm zombified... I'm distracted. Lost in some thoughts... or somebody's thought... this reality or another. Past, present, future... it never stops. Don't you even dare think this is a curse. I've learned that the ordinary can't handle infinite possibilities.
An infinite amount may seem what it takes to make a dream come true... to make any dream come true. It's worth it. It takes that much just to have any true weight to your own will to live.
Unipolarism is defined to have no known cause in the DSM. Intersexual are also defined under idiopathic, which also means no known cause. Science can't define extraordinary causes, as otherwise would not be science in any finite sense. Any symptoms or conditions the doctors find, list, report, documents, etc of both unipolarism and intersexualism do seem to overlap.
Blindsided...
...your opinion?
