Okay so. I've been asking my aunt and uncle if I can start testosterone for years. Literally. At least three. And they always say no, that it's dangerous, that I need to wait until I'm eighteen. But I honestly don't think I can wait that long. It's been so long already, and I am going insane. They said that if I find a specialist, they'd be willing to see him/her and talk about it. I live in Oregon and am on OHP. Does anyone know of a doctor who will see me AND recommend that I start T as soon as possible? It's dire.

Please guys. I really need help. I don't know what to do. I've Googled it and nothing.

You have to have yourself declared an emancipated minor by the court, then you can do this.  Otherwise it will take the approval of your parent or guardian.  I can't imagine that any doctor would risk his/her practice otherwise.

It sucks, but you will probably just have to hang in there and wait.

I can't wait. I seriously can't. I'm not being melodramatic or exaggerating or anything. They said they would talk to a specialist if I could find one. I've Googled it and I can't. I want somebody who preferably specializes in underage people, so they won't be like everybody else in my life. I need someone to listen.

Okay, I'm not quite understanding. Are your aunt and uncle your legal guardians? If so then they can give you permission I believe. I don't live in Oregon but my best suggestion is to call around and ask or look up websites of various psychiatrists. Odd as it is, it seems like where I'm at a lot of sex therapists handle transgender patients.

Yes, they're my legal guardians. I've been begging to start T for a long time, but they're against it. If I can set up an appointment with a transgender/hormone specialist who can talk them out of their stupidity...that's what I need to do. I've seriously been considering just buying steroids online. It's been four ->-bleeped-<-ing years. I should not have had to wait that long, it isn't fair. Nobody should have to. If I could have started when I first came out...I would look and be perceived, all the time, as a bio guy. No problem. It makes me feel so desperate. Sorry for the rant. I just feel hopeless.

I know it sucks to wait dude.. but online T is often not the best quality. If you dont get the right kinds it can really f with you. You could try going in to talk to your regular doctor if he's at least semi trans friendly - and he can find and refer you to a psych that deals with trans people.

Don't be sorry for the rant. Wish I could help you out. I've also been waiting around wanting to start T for about 4 years so I really do get it. A specialist talking to them is a great idea. I strongly suggest against ordering steroids online. You never know what it really is for sure not to mention I've heard of some nasty side effects using steroids instead of testosterone. I know sometimes it seems impossible but we're both young. We'll have plenty of time to live as the man we are even if it takes a little while to get there. I wish you luck with your transition. I'll see what I can find for you. What's the nearest big city if you don't mind me asking because I'm guessing they won't want to drive too far to see a specialist. Tad's suggestion of getting a referral from a GP is a good one.

I tried talking to my doctor about it...she brought up how she has another patient on testosterone and then told me to wait until I'm eighteen and then she continued to refer to her other patient using female pronouns which really pissed me off so I just shut up.
Portland is the closest city. It's super gay friendly, not too sure about trans though.
I just. It's ugh. And I have no trans friends, you know? So I can't even bitch to anyone. My girlfriend is supportive but she doesn't understand.

If I can find a specialist in Montana, you should be able to find one near Portland. I have family there..the environment just seems pretty trans friendly.
I wish you luck in your search..I hope this works out for you.

Not sure if links are okay. If not, I just googled Portland Oregon transgender  and this was the first page.

http://www.sarabecker.com/t/index.html

With a helpful list.

http://www.sarabecker.com/t/therapists_in_the_portland_metro.htm

Start there or somewhere similar, I'd say.

Yeah, I found that site. Unfortunately, as far as I can tell, those are gender therapists, not people who write prescriptions for hormones. I'm beyond frustrated right now, sorry if I seem like a dick. Sometimes I feel okay and then I start thinking and I'm like...damn. It's hard to ignore. I just want to be normal. Ugh.

But they may be able to guide you to what you need. Having a starting point is always a good thing.

Often it's yoru gp that will write the prescription... and the therapist will right a reccomendation for hormones - which gets forwarded to your doctor.. so don't neccessarily worry about finding a psychologist or pscyhatrist.

I like your attitude. Had I thought that way I'd have been better off.

Get to see your doctor. I think no matter your age he should allow you to talk to him in private, then try to tell him about your issue. Tell him about how you feel. If you explain it right (and if you have a good understanding doctor) he should direct you towards the fastest and safest way to transition. But make sure you have a good doctor... And make sure you don't let them influence you into saying it's "not that urgent". Don't make the same mistake I did.

Apart from that there's still self-medication. But it's illegal. And it's very dangerous. And I don't think it's a good idea. Just don't do it.

Thank you for the support. I'm seeing my regular therapist on Thursday-she's always said I should wait until I'm eighteen-and I'm going to talk to her, seriously, about this. If she doesn't get it through her head that this is a necessity, I'll go to one of the therapists from that site. I refuse to wait anymore. It isn't fair and people don't have the right to make me. I'm almost an adult. I know what I'm doing, and it isn't wrong. It's saving my life.

I admire you more with each post. Go for it !

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Thank you, I guess, although I'm really no one to admire. Trust me.
Does anyone have any suggestions as to what to tell my therapist?
Besides the whole...it's not dangerous after, I need it, blah blah blah. I've told her all that. What can I say that will make her listen? I even told her about the whole steroids thing. She said NOTHING.

Go for it man, you have the right attitude. If all else fails I just wanted to suggest contacting Portland's LGBT center or the closest LGBT center near you. Mine does $20 therapy sessions a couple days a week that might could talk to your aunt and uncle if they have that or you could take them to a transgender meeting, hearing others stories might make them realize how serious it is.

Come at her logically. Just remember to keep your cool. Try researching statistics that show there aren't adverse effects for younger kids. Also show them some cases where people under 18 have gotten on T, I know there are a few. Tell her you are transgender, you've made your decision, the research of others getting T under 18, and then again say you don't understand why you should have to continue being depressed when it's only a little bit of time before you're 18. That's what I would say. You know her best though so you probably know the best approach.