I've hated my body my whole life, and going to Catholic schools since first grade has never helped. Plaid skirts, polos, and knee high socks suck. I've been thinking hormone therapy for a while, I just think it would make me feel so much more comfortable. My girlfriend bought me binding a few weeks ago, but I'm still not as happy with myself. I hate my curves, my boobs which are rather large, and my voice. (I'm in broadcasting, so being comfortable with how I sound is important. Plus it's more of a "mans" job, and I feel like I'm criticized for what's in my pants. 
Up until a few years ago, I didn't know that people could be the wrong gender until a few years ago, but I feel like I've subconsciously known I've wanted to be a boy from an early age. I was always the guys when my sister and I would play. When we played school I was a boy, when we played house I was the dad, and if we played poke'mon or something I was Ash (Which worked out just fine because of my name) That's another thing, I've always hated my name...Ashley Nicole, like the most feminine name of the 90's. When I was like in the fourth grade, I begged my mom to change it to Ash-Lee Cole. Cause I thought it seemed more masculine. Which she refused to do since Ash-Lee is not a real name...
Don't get me wrong, I love being gay, and my girlfriend, and I like having a vagina, but i don't like the other things. I also think I'm already hormonally imbalanced. I'm a 19 year old girl and haven't had a period since 2006. Which makes me think that it'd be easier for me to do the hormone therapy.
I just I'm just confused about what to do. I don't feel comfortable the way I currently am, but I don't want to do something that won't make me happy. My girlfriend is totally supportive. I also don't know how to tell my family that I've felt this way for a while.