Probably I am the one. I sometimes want transition, but my circumstance does not allow it. I have lovely 3 kids and a dedicating wife, and I will never leave them without a dad and a husband during my life time.
Although usually I do not wear so boldy at my workplace, for example by wearing skirts or heels, my clothes and shoes are all women's. I teach in a unversity here, and people tend to be very conservative. Still I can express my feminity. I sometimes participate in international conferences, and have to wear trousers or even neck tie, but still can wear women's shoes and clothes. My colleagues and others know that I am a crossdresser, and most of them are now adapted to my image. Image is important.... My new image initially embarassed people, causing some debates, but as time passes, they have been accustomed to it.
An example of my fashion while I attended an international conference with my colleagues in Portland, US, last week:
The shoes was purchased at Walmart, Portland, last week. It was just $18! Without sales tax. It is women's, but still looks unisex. Tights and demin shorts. Plain jacket purchased at Walmart about 6 years ago. The top is purchased at Target last week in Portland.
A graduate student took the photo for me while I waited for a train to the airport. She always calls me as professor. Some aged professors sometimes comment on my fashion, but usually with jokes and smiles. It is actually me who is surprised at the adaptatability and flexibility of human whether they are young or old, or whether they are men or women. It does not matter. Even my dad, wife and kids accept my crossdressing far better than I initially supposed. As long as I sustain my family and do well in my professional career, it does not matter. Of course, most think that I am weird or something else... But I have an advantage because most people I firstly meet hardly forget me even in several years. I do not need a name card.
Barbie~~
