Why is it, no matter how hard I try I seem to find all the things that hurt the most.

The first chapter explains the most of it if you don't feel like reading the entire series.

http://stoptazmo.com/manga-series/kashimashi_girl_meets_girl/

/sigh

life sucks.

It's like when you break up with someone and after that all you hear on the radio are songs about heartbreak.

I really enjoyed the anime version, it's an interesting story.

...But this manga is interesting, still. I will probably read it all.

Oh, double post.

I read up to chapter 9 now, and I understand fully what you mean. Looking at happy stories of schoolgirls living their childhood and teenage and first loves is what hurts the most for me, too. It makes me happy but sad and regretful, at the same time. That's also why I liked Shugo Chara even though it hurt.

I think, putting aside every physical aspect whatsoever, not having had a childhood at all is what will always hurt the most for me.

I watched the anime and I certainly enjoyed it. It was actually recommended for me in Yahoo answers when I asked about animes with transgender themes. One thing that kind of irks me is that they still refer to Hazumu as a boy when addressing her. The space girl (forgot her name), adds a new twist of addressing her as "onee-nii sama!", which means something like Hey sis-brother!

It is a good series if you are into anime/manga and and like yuri (lesbian) themes. I can recommend this.

@A Shugo Chara is awesome 

Most of it has to do with not growing up as a female, not having relationships with female friends as a female and not having a relationship with my family as a female.

Everything about my day to day life is masculine or over the top macho and it's driving me crazy.

Granted... When I first saw the Manga I thought to myself 'oh this is most likely not going to be good for me' but I opened the book and subsequently ended up reading the entire series (had to download book 5 from a torrent). Good story for being a yuri, not over the top (I'm not a fan of the yuri class of manga) but someone said I might like it (started talking about Elfen Lied and they don't know about my particular bane in life) and wouldn't tell me about the story other then it's got a good story line.

(Added 3 hours after)

To give those an idea of what this story is about that don't want to read the series.

A boy, rejected by the one he loves escapes into the mountains where he normal gathers plants for the gardening club he runs at school is killed by an out of control space ship that crashes into the mountain (more like right into him). The aliens (yeah, go Japanese cartoons!!!) responsible for the boys death bring him back to life in accordance with their laws on harming foreign species with one complication. Because of the situation he had to be returned to life as a fully functional female.

From the actual book cover...

QuoteBeing a girl is harder than it looks...

For Hazumu, this couldn't be truer, because just the other day, she...was a he.

Shunned by the girl of his dreams, Hazumu loses himself in the mountains and is promptly squashed by an oncoming space ship. The alien inside, feeling guilty, rebuilds Hazumu's body...but as the wrong gender!

Now Hazumu must learn how to be the girl his parents always wanted while dealing with the trials and tribulations of being caught in a love triangle between two girls--his childhood friend, Tomari, and Yasuna, the girl who rejected him but is now strangely attracted to him/her!

Now, I know by reading that it does have that 'calling her a him' issue going on. But keep in mind, this wasn't written specifically as a transgender sensitive book.