It is amazing how many things can happen in one day, and how our very faith and lives can be challenged, and strenghened in it.
For the past month i've been sick, not hospital sick, but sick non the less. First it was simple nausia, then hemroids, then finally vertigo and headaches. The connection? All stress induced, i'll give you three guesses at what is causing the stress.
I thought the trip to the theripist would be enough, but instead it only got worse. So bad in fact I recently told 3 very importent people in my life, all of whom I work with.
The reason I did this was due to the fact that I am now being ordered to do a CAT scan and set an appointmant with a shrink, a MILITARY shrink. The appointment isn't set yet but I have a direct order to set one.
The CAT scan is to be sure that nothing is phisicaly wrong with my brain, and I doubt very much they will find anything, I didn't tell the doctor this, but I had very similer symptoms at age 15, the cause? Stress.
So now I have to worry about the shrink, or do I? One of the ones I talked to told me that unless I tell them I am ACTING on my thoughts (later confirmed with a phone call), and pose no threat, I can continue working. Another told me that I can get hair removal free, in fact they are looking for volunteers(guinie pigs i'm told). On top of that, I can get my CNA if I stay in for a full year as a corpsman.
The best part of all? One of them is looking for a roomate, and his offer still stands. i'm thinking of giving it a month for the conditions for BAH(base assisted housing, a special pay) to apply to me, or i'll do it ayway. All three are very supportive, and told me that if this is the most important thing to me, then go for it, or I will only regret it later. They suggested doing support groups and getting as many credit hours as i can, and use my college fund before it can be taken away.
My future because of this, is looking the brightest it has ever been for a long time. I left work today with the biggest smile, and I think it will be easier to do so in the future. This by no means is the end, or even the beggining of the end. But maybe, it is the start of a good beggining.
