Greetings.
I am a currently 21 year old (my birthday was a bit ago, it was alright I suppose, but I digress) technically MtF transperson. I don't usually write about this sort of thing, but a friend I know suggested that I participate in a support forum, so I am taking his advice. I first told my parents about myself when I was 5 and had my first cohesive thoughts about sexuality, but was forced to play the role that my parents wanted until roughly 16 when I had the courage to confront them about it, I was on a hospital bed so I guess that was the right time. My father is your typical zealous conservative christian, my mother is a bit more accepting. He thinks that I betrayed him by being who I am, and has admitted that he is selfish and stuck in his ways (but only once). I am looking to live by myself since my father upsets me so often, mainly because of his Asperger's tendencies.
I have many talents; mainly I like to write my own music on the computer, I also love listening to it, I do some C++ computer programming for some things, which I find humorous since it doesn't really fit with my emotional personality. I do indeed stealth deeply, mainly because I am afraid of rejection among others. I have quite a few pictures of me and no one even considers that I could be trans. I don't really know if I am being purposely deceitful; since in my mind I am a female, but I guess I have to face the facts. Many people say I'm very pretty, but I don't really put much stock into physical appearances since I find the emotions and soul of a being more important.
Anyway that's probably more than what anyone wanted to hear, so I will finish this post. I look forward to participating in this community, perhaps enough to change my avatar and signature, sometime. (Which I read is around 15 or so posts?)
