Hey my names Lukas and Im a FTM. Ive been on here for a little. But Ive never posted. I have this thing about starngers and my personal life. But my sister keeps pushing me to use this is site to my advantage. I think she's tired of me calling her when I get depressed lol. Anyways!!! I'm younger and I just told my father about a month ago that Im a dude. He didnt take it badly but gave me a gaint lecture on how great women are and all this shiz. I was barely able to say anything and explain futher then "Dad I want to be a man." I barley got the chance to tell him why when he went off on his little escapade. I was hoping when I told him at least a few things would change. See I have a slightly controling step mother. Dont get me wrong, shes amazing and I love her, but she practically controls everything that goes on in the house. I cant get my hair cut without asking and she wont let me. Ive been asking since the last time I got it cut. Which was last year....actually a little over a year. I was able to con her into letting me cut it all off last year, but I havent been able to since. Its grown out and its a nasty lengh. It comes all the way down to my stupid bra. Another thing I thought would change was I thought he'd let me get a chest binder. But when I asked him about it he changed the subject. I cant buy my own cause I dont have a credit card. And the only store around is Walmart. though I have a friend who sews and she gonna give it a try and hopefully make me one. And Im bout to go against my parents, I dont want to, and cut my hair. I hope they understand when they finally give me the chance to explain. I need them to know that ever time I look into my mirror I just want to punch it. I hate seeing this soft skined face looking back at me! Or these gaint boobs just hanging there like the fat they are. Or how ever time I take a shower I feel gross. They wonder why I sleep so much, its because its the only place I can escape to! I told my frineds and they help. But they forget. I know it happens, its hard to say he when you can see a chest and long girly hair.

Well thats my life all wrapped up. Yep. I think I kinda got off of the subject of introducing myself though.......

Hi Lukas,

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Janet

lol. I see. I will keep from posting my age.
Thank you

Hi Lukas

welcome to the forum
for what i've read, i do understand that you are a little young and you do need the help from your parents.
My advice would be, stay in conversation with your parents, get out of your bed and talk with them, not once not twice but don't stop talking every time you see them.
tell them you're unhappy with your gender and keep on nagging till they take you to a doctor or therapist to find out or you're a transgenderperson
I think parents won't be too happy with the message but a happy tg child is always better than a depressive cis girl, isn't it?

I'll hope you can do  something good with the advice, sorry, i can't think anything better

hugs
annette

Hey welcome to the site Lukas 

I second what Annette said. Some people just don't get the trans thing and you have to explain it. Something along the lines of "Dad, last time we talked I felt like I didn't have much of a chance to explain what I was saying. I feel like nothing is changing and it is upsetting. I wanted to see if we could work out a solution good for both of us" Or something like that. You've gained more than friends around here. The awesome people here quickly become like a second family.

I hope you can work something out with them man. In the meantime maybe you could convince them to get you a really good compression sports bra that is a size too small for "binding" until you can get a real binder? Course that might be a good time to throw in that a binder from underworks is only a bit more and would last longer. It took many talks with my mom to work things out to a comfortable level but it wasn't impossible, just seemed like it was. Good luck with everything man. Sorry for my novel here. See ya around the forum