Thank you everyone for your advice. 🙂 I went ahead and bought a sports bra with some help from a friend, and when I tried it on....I had no idea it would feel like it did, but it felt absolutely wonderful. I did not want to take it off either, it just felt right, I felt like this tingly and warm sensation from inside me. At the same time, another feeling came too. I wanted to be able to fully "fit" into it, meaning physical transition too. I know what needs done now, and this was kind of one of the big indicators too....it basically piled a lot of what I already have experienced with gender and felt over the years....and put it all together. I'm still fighting fears, but some doubts have been reduced for sure. I swore to myself that I would not run away this time....and I am glad I am not anymore.