Hi there Everyone! =)
I'm only just starting on my path toward becoming a woman.
Recently, I had my very first experience buying clothes, in public, for me, by myself.
I'd had a store chain recommended to me. About a month ago I went in to one of the local stores, was asked if I needed any help and left two minutes later. I was so afraid I'd left without even looking at anything.
I knew I needed to overcome this fear if I was going to have any chance of permanent transition working. Additionally, I'd read that if you buy your clothes from a place where natal women buy their clothes, they will feel more natural and you will feel a heightened sense of being a woman when you wear them.
Two weeks ago, I called the manager of that same store I'd walked into and told her about myself. I asked if it would be ok if I could shop there. She told me that not only was I welcome but there were others like me that shop there too. I asked when the least busy time of the day was and she'd told me to come when they first opened up in the morning. I told her I would be there the next day.
I got there and went in. I was greeted by lovely young woman named Anita. She asked me if she could help. I told her I'd called the previous evening and talked to her manager. I told her my situation and she was immediately warm and supportive. We picked several things out and she even got me to do something I'd never thought I could do. She got me to use the fitting rooms there at the store! I actually tried things on right there! I went out and shopped some more and came to a realization. Nobody really cares. I probably got a few looks but nobody said anything and all of the women in the store were more than happy to help with my purchases.
I've gotten so bad that I went into another store and was admiring all of the beautiful clothes hanging on the walls when the manager approached me. She asked if I was shopping for anyone special and in an breathless and excited voice I told her "Yeah, me!" She warmed right up and we had a wonderful time, not only shopping but she was bringing me things back to try on and checking me out when I had them on. She was wonderful!
I've even been trying on shoes in a store. A month ago I'd had my sister buy me my first heels. This time I was there by myself trying on shiny black heels to go with a pretty little dress I bought on my first little expedition.
Since I've realized that no one cares, I've been shopping all over and met some wonderful people. Additionally, I've even had myself made up at a MAC counter in a Nordrstroms store. WOW, what a change!
I love buying clothes!
*hugs*
Genevieve
