I have been thinking of telling my best friend who I have known since grade k but I am still undecided.

I have been home schooled for about 4-5 years now and I am afraid that it might slip out of his mouth when he's drunk at a party with people I used to know when I was at school before. He also recently got a girlfriend and I am afraid he might tell her and then she will tell all her friends until word would reach out. Basically I am afraid that if I tell him it will somehow slip out and then everyone I wasn't planning on telling or telling yet will get the news prematurely and hell will break loose on me    .

I know he's got nothing against LGBT or anything related but I am not sure how he would react to his best friend wanting to become a woman after we have known one another for so long.

I want him to see nothing wrong with me and keep the secret while at the same time still be able to hang out and have fun like we alway had be it playing COD on xbox or just hanging out. Basically I want nothing to change between us and not have a scene like from Life of Brian when the one character says that he wants to be a mother.

I'm starting to keyboard ramble I am going to finish this mess of text by asking if anyone else can relate to this?

i am all so kind of scared to tell my best mate we have been together since we where 5 and still hang out together i turst him but im not sure he will keep his mouth shut if someone who knows me asks what im doing and scared that they will look at me oddy or laugh at me. so i dont think ill tell him till im redly too. in the mean time ill conture to hang out with him till he asks me about it but he is kind of old fasioned when it comes to men and woman im pretty sure he will suppurt me but we might not be like best mates anymore. im also sorry that what i said here might not very helpful im writing what im saying.