Quote from: al james on January 02, 2011, 08:32:56 PM
Talking and thinking about it makes me realise that my whole life has been leading up to this point. Its just up to me now whether i grab the chance or waste another 20 years on what could have beens. I'm being given a chance that not all of us get think i need to remember that

I think in this one statement you reached your ultimate realization....you are being given a chance to make up for 'lost' time....grab it!!!!

Quote from: al james on January 02, 2011, 05:17:26 PM
ill always just be seen as a woman who wanted to be a man.

Even if some people do think this, don't you have the right to live with a body that you feel more comfortable with?

What if you start T and realise after a few months that it's not for you? You already pass as male so you haven't lost anything.

Are you worried that your family won't like the physical changes?

Why are you having doubts?

You are having them because you are an intelligent person who is aware of the long term implications of this decision.  You are fully aware of what of what this leap will cost you, not just monetarily, and you are wisely weighing that against what you will gain.

Absolutely nothing wrong with that.  In fact if you were not having doubts about something this huge I would question whether you should do it at all.  It's all perfectly normal and shows you are making the right decision either way. 

Best of luck Tigger!  You've got a lotta bouncin' to do!

Quote from: Tad on January 02, 2011, 11:11:02 PM
and some random fear that I might wake up when I'm 50.. and want to be female and identify as female. I know it's a silly fear taht isn't rationally based and very far fetched, based on the story of my life up to this date in time.. but what if it happens some day. I think it's reasonable to have rational and unrational doubts at this point. The symbolism of this movement (even for those of us that already pass).. is a huge thing.

I thought I was the only one with this fear, of waking up and wanting to be a girl again. Will this happen someday? I can't tell it, but I'm living the present, and in the present I want to be a guy, so that's what I'm doing!

Doubt is good.  Only fools rush headlong into something.

I try to think ten steps ahead of the game.  Even then, sometimes I doubt my course of action.  You can think about your situation all day long and still draw a blank.

Having doubts means you are smart enough not to get in over your head.

Well- got a few more months to wait on the hormones front anyway. Got my blood test results yesterday and apparently my T levels are already over double what a bio females should be tho my estrogen levels are normal. So they want to do some investigating before putting chemicals into my system which i totally agree with.

The only people who see me still as a woman are people who knew me before.  All others see me as male, no doubts at all.

Doubts are good, but don't drive yourself crazy.  I transitioned at age 47.  The past 2 years have clearly been the best 2 of my life, personally.


Jay