The older I become and the more I think about society and such make me conclude that this society needs an epic movement. I am now concluding that this should be my life purpose more than ever, since I believe I have the power to really change the social structure or at least influence people somehow.
It's a little insane now, but I think I am willing to do extreme gender taboos just for the sake of changing people's attitudes. I want to make transsexuality as normal as homosexuality, and I want to make homosexuality completely okay. It will take years to do this, but once it happens it will be all worth it. I will take the risk of losing everything I have, and losing all social acceptances, perhaps losing all my chance for a successful financial life. It's going to be worth it.
I want to push the envelope to the maximum, not only push it, but open it up and shove it down upon society. I want drag queens on television shows, I want cross dressers to be able to walk down a street without being gawk at like a weirdo, and I want gay men to be holding hands and not get look down upon even in the most conservative communities. I will get at least half of the USA states to be acceptable of gay marriage. I am thinking now I am a LGBT pioneer, like Martin Luther King for the black community, around that kind of scene.
I am not afraid of doing this.
It's just... it's kind of powerful feeling in me now, since never before had I felt this way. I felt like I wanted to be rich and famous, but it had no background on why I wanted to do it, for a legit purpose besides superficial crap. I am not going to transition, since I do not need to do it anymore, but I understand transsexuals more than a typical gay person could ever understand. I am not a cross dresser. I don't know what I am, but I am me, and that's enough. I am probably somewhere between androgynous and masculinity, with the essence of feminine. Like my emotional thoughts are feminine. But I don't care to transition.
This is my purpose... and I'll get it down.
I hope you're in for an insane future, since I'll make the LGBT community so popular it will be the mainstream. And when I am done, I bet I will lower all the depression/suicidal rates in the community since I'll make it powerful and supreme. You will remember me, since I will be the poster person of this community.
I have to leave Susan now, perhaps forever though... I might come back in a few years but I am too addicted to this computer, and I need to get my life structure for a mission. I learned all I think I will learn from here, and thank you all for doing that. All things come to an end, and I need to go.
And no one will ever be able to achieve it like I can, since I have all the right traits, talents, and willingness to get the job done. I will be a horrible person to not do this.
(and thanks for never banning me either lol, since I did said some wild things in the past)
