Hi all, first post of 2011

  So as the the MLKesque title suggests the following tale takes place in the land of nod.  Last night I had a dream that I was going to a relatives wedding. When I got ready to go, without any great planning, I did my hair and makeup and threw on a sky blue dress and heels. Now as unremarkable as that sounds it would help to know that I am not out to anyone yet (that should change next week) and not at all feminine in appearance .

  The odd thing was that all my relatives and friends, bar none, didn't care. They didn't bat an eyelid. I looked like I do now, except thinner (i'm trying to lose weight). One girl even complimented me quite flatteringly.

I know most of you have had similar dreams before, as have I. But this was different, more "complete". Before I was always a "real" woman but this time I was the real ME.  The most unusual thing was that after I woke up and realized it was just a dream it didn't get me down, if anything it gave me so much more motivation (of which I have very little normally) to do everything. I'm now more confident than ever of coming out to two close friends next week. I have more focus to study for my exams and more will power to resist temptation in the form of food.

  I don't know how or even if this is because of that dream, but everything seems more achievable today than yesterday.  Sorry for the long post but I just had to share that little vignette with you all.

Hugs, Claire xoxo

Yeah..dreams do give motivation . I remember in 09 when i came out, before i came out. I always had dreams. one of them took place  at my grandmas house and i would be so pretty and my outside matched my inside . I remember my grandma told me to go get the door because someone had knocked....well it was my boyfriend and his friend. I felt so happy to see him.(i dont know who the guy was ..but he was Fine!) then i realized..wait....i hope i dont have that extra part!! Then i brought him in and sat him down to me granny and i went to the bathroom..to check. Then i woke up . Looking back on it..its so funny...because around that time i wasnt out but i wanted to be.

Wow Claire, that was an amazing dream. Sure it gives you lots of energy and it reassures you're on the right track!
I once dreamed (as a pre-op) I had SRS and everything was settled and it all felt just so right and complete, when I woke up I wished to go back to sleep and dream further.

Good luck with coming out and your exams.

I think this is a more common thing than you'd think.

I had a similar dream several years ago.  I was physically complete with my transition and was doing just everyday things with my family.  I cried when I woke it.  Not from sadness, but it was such a beautiful dream. 

 The dysphoria really hit hard yesterday for some reason.

And I do understand its a common type of dream but the difference with this one was that I had not done any transition. I was simply cross dressing if you will. Whereas in all my previous dreams I was fully transitioned and sad when I woke up. that was the major difference.

I don't know if this explains it better at all but i hope it does.

Hugs, Claire xoxo