After 21 years of pain suffering and torment caused by a penis, I am lying down in a hospital bed 3 days ater my operation. I have had some hiccups such as air in the IV fluid, language barriers, irritation and pain caused by the catheter, second implantation of IV Needle.
But, while I am hospitalized for the next few days... It's worth it. I don't regret losing that which should never have been there to begin with. I regret that I have had to go through so much pain just to be how I was meant to be. For anyone looking to go all the way, that first time that you look down after your op, and see that there is no penis, no scrotum, no testicles... It's a pretty cool feeling!

And to think... This time last year I had just come out to my parents, here I am a year later, lying down in a hospital bed, getting sponge baths and orange juice. And now, I am still getting my head around the fact that I am not in Australia, and I have not got a penis anymore. I cant wait until the packing is removed, and the pain is gone. It will be the most amazing feeling ever!

And I'm using free WiFi in Bangkok, yes there is free WiFi!
http://trueinternet.co.th/

The amazing feeling will fade pretty fast, leaving you with a feeling of...normality.
Do you have some goals in mind for post-transition life? It's good to concentrate on life beyond surgery - and what to do with yourself once you're over the wonder of having no penis & testes.

I have plans. I never thought that I would actually ever get my surgery, it feels like a miracle that I have, and as I said before... I am still coming to terms with the fact that I have had my surgery and now have a vagina. But yeah, before my surgery, I wasn't a jobless person, and I had dreams, after my surgery, I'm still not a jobless person, and I still have dreams ^_^
Ultimately, in the grand scheme of things, surgery isn't really that big of a deal, its what you do with your life that is.

I have often wondered what that feeling must be like immediately post-op. It must be amazing. Even if it doesn't last very long, I hope the happiness of finally being who you were meant to be lasts a lifetime.

The feeling right after being post-op is (or at least for me) "did it really happen?"

I know the feeling down there has changed, it still very much feels the same in most ways. But basically, when I woke up, my lower half was numb from local anesthetic, and when the feelings returned, I can only really feel the odd throbbing pain, and a sensation of burning (front side) and needing to go to the toilet due to the packing. I am now coming to terms with the fact that I no longer have that gross atrocity between my legs, I know in time the feeling will subside, and I can't wait until I am ready to go to my hotel.

The Dr and his assistant have been fantastic, the nurses have done the best they can with what they have, and with the language barrier.

Quote from: Melody on January 09, 2011, 09:25:09 PM
I have often wondered what that feeling must be like immediately post-op. It must be amazing.

Immediately post-op?

- extremely thirsty
- hideous pressure in your nethers
- pain. Lots of pain
- grogginess and nausea
- intense cold that makes all your limbs shake uncontrollably
- disorientation and confusion

Not very amazing akshully 

Yes, well I figured all the usuall post-op stuff. I once had major knee surgery and remember a lot of those things. Doctor sent me home with some very weak pain killers and I awoke in the middle of the night crying in anguish. An incredible pain that lasted for hours. Hell on earth for awhile. It was a full year before I could run again.

It isn't the same, but I wake up now with a feeling of did it happen?  Did I really tell my world that I am trans or was that some sort of dream? I have often dreamed that I had a vagina and would wake up and be disappointed. When I can wake up and realize it wasn't a dream, that will be amazing to me.

You know, a lot of the 'amazingness' got subsumed into my drive to recover quickly and do the right things. I was more concerned with drinking a crapton of water and making sure that I'd be able to pee the day they discharged me. Also, getting the packing out was my other major concern - it caused a lot of pressure pain and general horribleness.
But being realistic, what we should feel after surgery is a not-feeling-like-->-bleeped-<--from-dysphoria feeling - and a feeling of normality.

About the nausea... I projected vomit over half of my hospital room (Including the roof) when they gave me morphine for the first time. That was at 3am, my Op finished (and I regained consciousness) at 12am. Thankfully I had the local anesthetic injected into my spine to cope with immediate pain after surgery.

I went with Dr Saran, he has been fantastic, I will let everyone know the results soonish.

Congratulations!!! I'm actually jealous. *Hugs* I'm very happy for you, even though things didn't go perfectly, it still got done without anything major happening.

Congrats again!

S A R A H M   You are now on the list.  Congratulations, Sara.

Quote from: sarahm on January 09, 2011, 11:12:54 PM
About the nausea... I projected vomit over half of my hospital room (Including the roof) when they gave me morphine for the first time. That was at 3am, my Op finished (and I regained consciousness) at 12am. Thankfully I had the local anesthetic injected into my spine to cope with immediate pain after surgery.

I went with Dr Saran, he has been fantastic, I will let everyone know the results soonish.

That's an indication of possible allergy to opiates.
Best of luck on a speedy recovery and beginning of normalcy.

Good to hear you're doing well, or at least so much as can be expected. I actually mailed off my application for SRS today and I've felt anxious ever since. To read your account of it makes me even more excited and nervous at the same time.

only problem is they are making me eat big meals, when I never eat big meals, so I get a lot of stomach pressure which is causing pressure pain in my nether regions plus the feeling of the packing and the catheter... Makes you feel like you always need to go to the bathroom >.<

Hi Sarahm

Its good to hear that you are doing well and that you are happy so far.  Take care and all the best for the future.  I'm sure you will do extremely well.

Love and hugs
Sarah B

Here is a thread where are feelings are mentioned just after surgery.

Kind regards
Sarah B

Ok. After the horrific ordeal of the removal of the packing and catheter, which envolved an anxiety attack and a hell of a lot of pain, the visual appearance of my vagina is "fantastic" as my doctor said, one of the best he has done and I agree, it looks very good even though it is swollen to hell and back. Stiches come out in like 2 - 3 days which will be good, but then dilation starts then too.

I would recommend Dr Saran to anyone not made of money, I already have some sensation back in my vagina and it's day 6.

Interesting; I found the catheter and packing removal to be an absolute non-event. I didn't even feel the catheter come out and I started laughing during the packing removal (seeing all that cloth come out of me just struck me as hilarious; I felt like a magician's sleeve).

Funny you should say:

Quote from: Vexing on January 13, 2011, 02:03:56 PM
Interesting; I found the catheter and packing removal to be an absolute non-event. I didn't even feel the catheter come out and I started laughing during the packing removal (seeing all that cloth come out of me just struck me as hilarious; I felt like a magician's sleeve).

I remember the catheter and packing being taken out, but there was no additional pain when it was being taken out, maybe just discomfort and of course the packing material it took so long to take it out, I also remember asking how much longer it was going to take, to take out the material, watching it being taken out was so bloody funny.

However, it was certainly an event to remember because 20 years later, I still remember it very clearly, like as if, it was only done yesterday.

Kind regards
Sarah B

Quote from: jamie nicole on January 13, 2011, 01:34:48 PM
  When I noticed on Dr. Saran's website that his fee's are only $8000 and noticed he trained under Dr. Preecha, i realized that my own journey has a real opportunity to come to fruition!

Wow, I knew Bowers was more expensive, but I didn't know it was that much more. I'm looking at $22,500.