Simone, we all love you too, you're quite remarkable, the way you take care of your parents, making the food for christmas and don't forget...your will(girl)power.
There is a whole new person standing in front of us, I can't hardly wait to see what an amazing woman you are gonna be......and you will be.

Patty, thanks honey, you are such an emphatic person, but on the other hand, the expiriences weren't nice to get trough but it has made me the one that I am now.
I know I'm a fighter and i will never give up.
My son is an adult now with a babyboy of his own( yes I'm a grandma ) and we do have a good relationship so things worked out pretty good.
But it were sweet words of you and I sure appriciate that
give my love to roxy and what ever happends, what ever the family will agree or disagree with your way of life, the both of you look the perfect couple in my eyes and loving eachother is more important than what others should think or say about it.

lots of love
annette

Hi Simone,
All the weekend festivities been keeping me busy.
But I am here for you sis.
I agree with Annette, except your already a lovely women.
But like Annette I can hardly wait to see your physical changes.
Hugs,
Jillieann

Hi Simone
I totally agree with Jillieann, you are already a lovely woman but what I ment to say is that there is a development and you develope so fast...amazing.
I wish I could set the clock forwards to see what happends after your journey....I think there is gonna be a woman with so much friends because of the way you are, kind, friendly, confident and lovely.
There is so much difference in the way you behaving and the way you look to the things of life between page 1 of your story and page 10 and it's a very positive change.
When I read this again I think you must be a lot happier now than you was before and I enjoy it so much to see how you are making this progress, I really love your posts.
You're on track honey, keep on going, you'll suprised me every time and I love to be suprised by you
btw, is your mother dutch? sometimes i've read dutch expressions in your posts.

a big hug for my sister
annette

OKAY WOW

I had a fabulous night, I decided to go to my first Torchlight Gender Support group meeting dressed and as nervous as I was I started to get ready early. The meeting was at 7 so at 5:30 I hit the shower, Hair removal then hit the shower, did a facial scrub, washed and conditioned my hair. Then blow dried and styled my hair, bit of Ozone friendly hair spray and it was looking as feminine as it was going to look at my current length. Moved on to making my face, Moisturized and anti aged, foundation then a mixed fixer. Moved on to eyes, decided to use a lighter look so used some powder on the upper eye just a bit darker then my natural lower eye high light with a shade lighter then my skin then over laid the upper eye lids with a bit of golden. Moved to eye liner oh wow Eyeliner is so hard but I got it eventually.  Thanks to MeghanAndrews and her online video on makeup for going out to a club.  I got my eyes correct then added some mascara and it looked nice.  Brushed on some powder on for head cheek bones hit my nose upper lips chin and neck with it and then highlighted it all with a slightly lighter powder.  Lipstick and gloss and done.  Looked at the clock. Eeeeee eeeK! 6:17PM run run.

Bedroom Panties, Knee highs nylons, Leggings and a long black blouse that comes 2/3s of the way down to my knees.  Slipped on my flats dash to the washroom and perfume. Touch up in the mirror.
No purse, looking around panic! Black Rogers Cable bag dropped in a few items I might need to touch up. My wallet, cell phone keys. Run out to the car. 6:35pm OMG. Drive as quickly as I can legally to Cambridge about 20 minute drive.  Park the car and walked into the meeting just as the others were arriving whew.  Even had time to go to the ladies room and check my face once.

The meeting was small but great there were 4 of us. One nice girl was celebrating as she had gotten her SRS letter from CAMH today.  We talked about all sorts of things no real organization but a lot of friendly banter from like minded ladies.
Got a lot of advice a few new e-mail addresses and a lead on some work from home work I can do to supplement my pension. Several business cards from local lazer clinics etc and exchanged phone numbers.  It was nice they all look so lovely and asked me how far along I am.  I said I just started and some looked surprised as a lot of new trans people come in man mode.

Well it was wonderful and I am so happy.  Just had to run home and tell you all, all about it.

Hugs Simone.

Oh Simone that's great.
I perfer a small groups.
That way you are able to ask questions and share in more detail.
And the best part is that you get to know the people in the group.
I'm so glad that everything went so well.
Keep going Sis,
Jillieann

Oh, Simone, I KNEW you'd have a great time!  I bet the group was so small mainly because of the holidays - I bet there's more at the next meeting.  At the Hamilton group I attend, there's almost always a pretty even mix of transmen and transwomen, and there's usually about 15-20 people there.  I agree, a small group is good, but larger groups can be good, too, if you attend regularly.  Anyway, I'm glad it went so well.  I knew it would!   

Simone I'm so happy for you.
Making new friends is always great.
And for a woman who's so kind as you are it wouldn't be difficult to have a lot of friends and support.
You deserve it to have a lot of caring people around you.
Good for you sweety

love
annette

Hello everyone, Sorry to have been away for several days now.

I've had a lot going on including some dental work that needed doing and has left me feeling like someone hooked a tire bar onto my teeth and started to pull.

But here I am back again with nicer teeth and finally starting to feel well. It's amazing what effects can be caused by a few in attended cavities. I had a ear infection that was a lingering thing.  Didn't know it was some how part of a tooth problem. Brushed everyday and all.  Simple fact is I had become so accustomed to the pain from the cavities that I stopped noticing it.  So 700 plus dollars later I am finally ok. Tired happy and missing everyone. 

Hugs all and hope to hear from you soon.

Glad to see you back and feeling better, Simone!  I'll be offline mostly for the next couple of days, as I'll be staying with a friend tomorrow night in Toronto so I can get to CAMH Tuesday morning on time and lookin' good.  And Tuesday is my wife's birthday, so I might not be able to come back here until Wednesday.  Just so you know where I am and don't worry about me...

Hugs, girl, it's good to see you back!

Glad your teeth are better Simone. Sorry that your pocket book is lighter. Nothing like a visit to the dentist to lighten the load in a pocketbook. 

Have fun Colleen. Hope you have the best time. Look forward to your return and the update of your adventures.

Hugs.
Patty

It's good to have you back Simone.
I was asking Colleen what had happen to you.
You were missed hon.
How's that ear infectiion doing?
Hugs'
Jilliean

Hi Simone

aaahh, good you're back
700 dollars lighter but, I pressume with a lovely smile.
How's life going on sweety, is the rest of the family used now about your new you?


love
annette

Welcome back !

Aw, you just reminded me that I have not gone to the dentist for months and have those back teeth I do not have time to search the name in English for that are growing and got infected the last time I saw the dentist. Too bad I have no insurance, hehe. I feel like in the US, just "hoping it cures itself" because I can't afford treatment xD. (Not funny actually ; I feel bad for you all.)

Back to Simone. I have been thinking... Maybe you should open a blog, with all the updates you give us on this thread ! Just an idea. But do keep us informed on your progress !

A I think you are refering to wisdom teeth. I have one that needs pulling too. Yet I have a hefty dental bill already, so I am hoping it will wait. 

If you want a HEFTY dental bill, try an implant.  One implant, even WITH dental plan paying for a LOT of it... $4,000. (just about to leave for the train, couldn't resist popping in...)

Have a good trip Colleen.
Wish you the best.
Hugs,
Jillieann

Oh, you have the same name. We call them wisdom teeth too. Should've just said it.
/thread hijack, sorry

I met Simone last night in person.  She is a beautiful woman, and she has a big heart.  She is every bit as beautiful as she comes across here.  She will go far in life.  Simone, I am so glad to know you!

Simone and Colleen it is so nice that  you two got to meet. Hope to hear more of your time together. Colleen you still have to make a post filling us in on you time out.

Hugs,

Roxy & Patty

  Oh my God, Oh my god! 

Well I twisted another Trans friends arm into going with me to Hamilton's Group meeting,  because I wanted to go with someone. I spent to many year's driving a big truck alone.
Now that I am beginning my transition I love to have someone along and feel safer with company.  So my Friend Cori who just got her Golden letter and is approved for her SRS. Came for the ride.

I had e-mailed Colleen earlier telling her I would be at the meeting and she said that she would be there but be a little late. Wonderful I thought! "As long as I get to see you".

So I spent a sleepless night before the meeting excited happy so many good thoughts going through my mind. Finally falling asleep at 5 am.  Got up at 9 am and rushed to have breakfast. Then clean the car off and shopping.  I needed a woman's coat and there was a sale on Nylons 3 pair for $14.50 so I had to get in on that.  I also got a lovely purple winter coat with a hood. Ended up also going to value village and Talize. Wanted to get my ears pierced but I ran out of steam before I could.

Home for lunch cooked a larger meal for my parents and set up something for them for dinner.
Then I just started to get ready. Now it's 2:30pm the meeting starts at 7pm.  By 3:30 I am dressed made up nylons, skirt black blouse.  Hair done best I can and makeup to my satisfaction. Sitting around tapping my foot.  So I said to heck with it. I got over to Cori's early. Benefit of this is. I saw all of Cori's family her 1 year old, her lovely wife & special needs son and her 12 year old daughter.  All of whom with out exception said hello Simone and never once refereed to me as he. Over joyed by that and playing with the baby while talking. I spent a lovely afternoon and time flew past. At 5ish we started the hour drive but the roads are not great so I took 1.5 hours to get there.

We got to the meeting.  Well they had snacks and coffee, some soda. A circle of chairs (large circle) was in the middle of the room.  Everyone sat and we made small talk and introductions before the meeting began. I had the pleasure of meeting a lady who had just finished her SRS in Bangkok, her bottom cost her $5000. And her flight was only $1300. $6300 for the same service  that would cost $20.000 in North America.  Makes you think!

The meeting began it was run by Will a F2M that passes 100 percent and is very nice ran it. There were even numbers of F2M and M2F people present and it was nice to see both sides and get to know people. After formal introductions we had a break. Colleen came in and I felt so silly. She looks lovely, but my jaw popped open and all I manages was Colleen you are so tall!
I felt so dorky when she pointed down and I noticed her 3 inch heeled boots!  So instead of speaking further I just hugged her.  It was so nice to see her at last. 

We exchanged phone numbers and Colleen better call me if she needs anything even just to talk.
PS note girls.  Never toss 3 rolls of quarters along with your makeup kit, keys change wallet and id wallet into your purse.  My chair kept falling over every time I stood up.  Pitty the mugger that gets hit with my Purse!

Love and hugs all

Simone.