Greetings Ladies,

I'm going through big trouble right now. I feel the eagerness to seek for love, I need love, I need someone to love me, I need a man in my life. Jealousy is heading my way too. Im inlove more than before. Im crazily inlove. And everytime I see him with another girl or another transgender, i feel like im going to break down. It seems like i wanna shout and cry. I never felt this way before. Is it a part of the medication? Is there anyone experiencing the same. Or is there anyone who can help me fight and get rid of these feeling? Who can help me not to fall in love? This feelings is killing me like hell.

I don't think that's the medication - I think it's human nature.

No Nicksy, it is not the HRT.  It is the basic human need for companionship.  You will find it once you come to that place that you love you.  And that is not just saying it.  It will be that inward knowing that you love yourself.

It just get a little stronger because we are now under the control of Estrogen.  That brings the emotions to the surface.

,this is really bothering. I cant do anything. Im not on the mood to do any stuff. All I wanted is to stay on my bed and rest. .and suddenly cry, or just notice tears flowing from my eyes. This is very stressing. I dont how to deal with it.

I think a great example to show you're normal in the woman spectrum of feelings is the show Scrubs. In an episode during season 2 or 3, Carla pulls Elliot and talks to her about appearing crazy (I'm not implying anyone is crazy, just using an example).

Carla: Just fake it! Don't let him see what a neurotic mess you are. You see Turk over there?
Turk: Hey!
Carla: He doesn't know that I cry sometimes because I'm not sure there's a cat heaven. It's all about hiding the crazy and acting like the most confident girl in the room.
Elliot: No problem!
J.D.'s Narration: I, too, decided it was time to act like the most confident girl in the room, and face things head-on.

My point is that you're going to have moods, feel unloved, feel unmotivated, and cry for no reason, because that's part of being a woman. The best way to describe it is that the highs are higher and the lows are lower, but it's all about putting your best face forward and appearing as the most confident girl in the room.

Quote from: n00bsWithBoobs on January 10, 2011, 05:29:12 PM
My point is that you're going to have moods, feel unloved, feel unmotivated, and cry for no reason, because that's part of being a woman. The best way to describe it is that the highs are higher and the lows are lower, but it's all about putting your best face forward and appearing as the most confident girl in the room.

,thanks for the encouragement. I'll try to be more confident.

. .sigh. .

Quote from: nicksy23 on January 10, 2011, 06:51:22 PM
,thanks for the encouragement. I'll try to be more confident.

. .sigh. .

Oh, girl, I'm sorry! That came out wrong... what I meant was that it's normal to have those feelings. I apologize because it came off as sounding callous and bitchy on my part. We're here for you as part of this community and you're always welcome and encouraged to share what you're feeling with us.

I hope you don't feel like you're alone in how you're feeling. I remember one time staying up half the night and crying to a friend of mine on the phone because I thought I was ugly and would always be alone. I was in such a dark place then. That mood did pass, however, and I was able to fight off the depression and get better mainly because I was able to lean on the love and support of friends and family (even those who did not approve of my decisions). I hope you'll be able to do the same and we're here for you if you ever need it. 

It's all fine hon. I know you dont meant it the other way around. I know you're all here to help, and I'm glad you're one thanks again^^ your concern is so much appreciated.