your sharing about working in a hospital, is quite encouraging, thank you so much for all the support and advice, I have a problem though, one of my coworkers found out and told my ambulance director, who in turn said that if I ever came out at work, I would have to be reviewed at the county board meeting (we're a county agency), and that he wished that it wern't that way, but that it was the law, and he couldn't do any thing about it, what do I do, isn't it illegal to have to present such things before the entire county?