Hi Jennie
Welcome to the forum.
It's good to find out you're not crazy, of course not.
Because, if you were crazy, we would all be completely insane don't you think.
No honey, mother nature mades some cruell jokes with us.
These things happends but, we can do something about it.
I've read your earlier posts and about your question about losing some people when you come out, I think maybe not, probably yes .
The expirience with most of us is that there are some people who will leave but there are other people who will come into to your life.
It's hard to come out but when you've made the big step it's easier to face people, because you don't have to live with a secret anymore.
I'll hope you'll find the strenght and wisdom to live the life you wish.
love
annette