I might have to see about that, then! I wish I could go and see someone now until waiting for college.

I wasnt even willing to go part time until I had tried HRT and decided if it was going to agree with me.

Yeah I definitely could not pass withuot some HRT, definitely not going part or full time until that changes. I guess I'll swap once it becomes impossible or really hard to hide. Probably the best way I think, then it's easier for people to get used to it, and less stressful for me. I guess we'll see.

I'm curious though, does anyone else feel like they're not completely a woman yet, but should be, rather than are and need their body to match?

Quote from: SamanthaElle on July 19, 2010, 10:05:26 PM
Is it common to think of it as, "I am not a girl now, but should be.", rather than "I am a girl and my body should match?". In some aspects I already do sometimes, but not most of the time.

Both those statements ring true for me, just depends on my state of mind at the time.. Like you, I'm at the beginning of my journey and, until recently, never considered that being trans was an option.. Now that I've accepted it as an option, I feel better about myself than I have in a long time..

Sorry to play thread necrophilia, but I made an appointment with a therapist for this Thursday! Two days!

As time has gone by I feel like I'm more of a girl inside, I guess. I notice I get a bit more feminine when I get excited, probably a good sign. I was told it normally takes around 3 months of therapy before therapists can prescribe hormones; is this true? I think I'd want to start sooner if possible, but naturally I don't want to self med for a plethora of reasons.

That's not exactly set in stone. I received my meds the same day.

It may be helpful to find out if you're working with therapists & physicians who use an "informed consent" model.

Hey baby, welcome to the never never land! At least you are so young and whole life awaits you.

You have won already! Confronting dysphoria at your age makes for greater chance of happiness and wholeness in the near future. As to the results of transition, starting at 18 you are nearly guaranteed 100% full passability and if endowed with good genes you might even be a looker.

Now as to your original question, transition in its self encompasses multitude of small details but overall individual is pursuing such to cure the disconnect between brain and body sexual characteristics. Even though it is often referred as sexual characteristic, the feeling of being a woman or man in clinical approach goes deeper than mere sexuality and starts at the core of identity. HRT has tendency to separate physical sexual craving and identity into separate, easily observable behaviors. So in the essence, you want to know if your desires are set on by sexual stimuli or dwell within your identity as a girl. There is nothing wrong with being confused and just to make you feel better most of us had another 20-30 years of this prolonged confusion to finally come to the same conclusion at the end.

I wish you wonderful experience with your therapist and that you may clear your mind and decipher who you are, all my love, Alexia   

So it was today! It went pretty well; she said things would take a while before I could start doing anything like HRT (she mentioned something about the 'benjamin protocol', but I can only find stuff on the 'benjamin scale'), but I think it's good to be sure before I do anything, as naturally it might be a bad idea to jump into it.

Hooray!

Just made an appointment with an endocrinologist! Unfortunately it's not until April 22nd which is far too long in the future for my liking.

You have waited a lifetime to get that apointment. April 22 is a cake walk for a veteran sufferer like you eh?

Keep in mind this...You will not be likely to get your hormones on the 22nd. The doctor needs to get baseline hormone levels for you and likely will be spending this first visit getting to know you and your case.
You need to remain patient but the reward is soooo worth it and very close now.

Hugz and luv.

Am I transgender?  Should I transition?  These are the kind of questions that, if you are even asking them, the answer is probably yes.

Quote from: GinaDouglas on February 08, 2011, 03:25:54 PM
Am I transgender?  Should I transition?  These are the kind of questions that, if you are even asking them, the answer is probably yes.

Yeah, came to that conclusion a bit ago.

Quote from: cynthialee on February 08, 2011, 03:06:31 PM
You have waited a lifetime to get that apointment. April 22 is a cake walk for a veteran sufferer like you eh?

Keep in mind this...You will not be likely to get your hormones on the 22nd. The doctor needs to get baseline hormone levels for you and likely will be spending this first visit getting to know you and your case.
You need to remain patient but the reward is soooo worth it and very close now.

Hugz and luv.

Ach, that's too bad. Although my therapist did say it was possible to get a prescription then. I guess we'll have to see.

Quote from: GinaDouglas on February 08, 2011, 03:25:54 PM
Am I transgender?  Should I transition?  These are the kind of questions that, if you are even asking them, the answer is probably yes.

How true!! It simply never occurs to any 'normal' person to doubt their gender. Another real tell: just being able to contemplate the loss of penis and testicles. Most guys fear that more than death itself. If you don't, well ...