WEll as some of you had read on one of my posts, my last blood relative alive, (sister) and I spoke today,,,once she understood what I was telling her about who and what I am, her response was, "your no family of mine, freak"

Every since I found her, I have been overcome by home sickness,,,,,and now....such an empty feeling inside...feeling as worthless and as unwanted as  a scrap of paper blowing in the wind.....you know, when I was 13, my mom was speaking to someone, and she was unaware i was in the closet hiding (i was trying  my first screwdriver) I overheard her say that she didnt really want me, and dont love me......while looking into my family tree the other day, I learned that my mother was married in TExas and had a 5 year old child....she up and just left her husband and child and moved from texas to idaho to marry my dad..................... you know she use to always tell me that i was the BIGGEST mistake she ever made....
im hurting really bad right now........

it doesnt matter....what was i thinking? look at me man.........................FI

Oh man kitty, I can only imagine how much that would hurt.  Maybe given some time to think, she'll realize how stupid she's being.  Until then, remember that you have a huge family here.

were irish/italian and you know what they say about the Irish dont you? we are some of the most stubborn, bull headed peoples! its true we irish are

I'm so sorry that you are hurting. It's not fair that sleazy people can have the power to hurt you like that but the value of YOU as a person, doesnt rest on what those nasty people think or say! I would give my life for any three of my daughters and for any parent to say such a thing is absolutely horrible!!!

We don't get to choose our family but we do get to choose our friends and loved ones. It hurts, but we have to let negative people go and move on.

Big hug, Stacy

Quote from: StacyBeaumont on February 15, 2011, 10:43:44 PM
It's not fair that sleazy people can have the power to hurt you like that but the value of YOU as a person, doesnt rest on what those nasty people think or say!



Big hug, Stacy

I appreciate your trying to help I really do. However I would appreciate it if you would not call my sister names. Even though I am devastated, and more hurt than i have been in a long time, she is still my sister, and I love her... Though she has chosen to disown me, I will stand by her until the day I die, I will always love her and care about her....

And again love, thanks for trying,,,

Be strong, things will just go better now, and you know i'm here if you need me <3

It is hard when we try to reconnect to family, only to be shunned.  Fear now Kitty, you still have an extended family here, and you already know we care for each other.

Kitty, you can't change where you came from.  That lack of love and cruelty gets passed down from generation to generation...Mother to Daughter..  All you can do is break the chain.  I'm sure you're more empathetic, kinder, and more loving than anyone in your family.  You should be proud of that fact and stand strong.  You're the future, not the past.

You're so busy focusing on yourself right now.  Taking care of and healing yourself.   You might not actually have a lot of energy for other people even though you feel like you do.  When you are rock solid, you're going to have a lot of love to give and some amazing relationships.

Quote from: Candice on February 16, 2011, 12:01:53 AM
Ugh. Really?! you've never even met the damn woman!!
That doesn't really surprise me though.. your posts always make me

you know what, check this out, if you were actually intelligent enough to get a complete set of facts before blessing the world with your unintelligent opinion, you might find that people are listening to you.........
If i wasnt cleasr, ,et me be so now, I grew up with my sister in the same house,,,we even had the same parents, golly gee.....

Kitty.

It will take time. But the hurt heals.

No-one is under any obligation to like anyone.

You mother seems to have had a few problems connecting. The reasons are probably complex. But that's the way it is.

Not sure if you met your sister or simply spoke on the phone, but either way, she made her decision on a single judgement. Sorry, but that is her loss.

Quote from: spacial on February 16, 2011, 06:54:57 AM
Kitty.

It will take time. But the hurt heals.

No-one is under any obligation to like anyone.

You mother seems to have had a few problems connecting. The reasons are probably complex. But that's the way it is.

Not sure if you met your sister or simply spoke on the phone, but either way, she made her decision on a single judgement. Sorry, but that is her loss.

Yeah I grew up with my sister, we were not close growing up, but we were getting over it when i was 19 and 20,,,, then we lost contact,,,17 years ago,,,so yes I knew my sister and didnt just speak to her only once in my life..

*big big big big big big e-hug*

Really sorry to hear this girl. I can relate in a way.

Take a tip from me and try to concentrate on the good things with your life now. It will be harder some times than others.

*hugs*

My apologies. I should have made the comment toward the behavior and not the person! I hope things get better for you.

Quote from: StacyBeaumont on February 16, 2011, 04:13:20 PM
My apologies. I should have made the comment toward the behavior and not the person! I hope things get better for you.

I know you meant no harm hun...it was just a very sensitive moment for me and I was feeling really bad....thank you....