Just wanted to moan about how, when I was known as 'female' plenty of people would comment on how I looked butch perhaps, or had a manly walk, or didn't fit in with the girls, and generally poked fun at me because I was too masculine BUT NOW coming out as trans, eventually, from the same people it tips back- you have a feminine walk, you have a feminine face, you get along better with girls whatever sh*t they come out with.

All I want is a goatie, so I can just be like, **** you I'm a dude, check the facefur.

I lol'd at "check the facefur". I don't think I've ever had that happen to me, the worst I've got really is a friend of mine who'll go onto these stupid tangents of "Why would you wanna be a guy, guys suck, blah blah" and I just have to fight down the urge to kick him in the ass and tell him to trade privates with me. I hate when guys do that.

Quote from: N.Chaos on March 29, 2011, 02:30:27 AM
and I just have to fight down the urge to kick him in the ass and tell him to trade privates with me. I hate when guys do that.

lol
i'm not out yet, but i'm not looking forward to that part

Quote from: N.Chaos on March 29, 2011, 02:30:27 AMtell him to trade privates with me.

I did that before I was even out to myself. I'd get extremely aggressive around guys that would complain about anything, and said I'd happily swap place with him any time. "You ungrateful bastard". I'm still bitter like that actually..
They'd look at me as if I was an alien.

Back on topic, I get that too. My mother especially used to say I didn't have an ounce of femininity in me.. Now it is "but you were so feminine". I don't get how that works.

Quotesaid I'd happily swap place with him any time. "You ungrateful bastard". I'm still bitter like that actually..

Ayuh, exactly. And then some people launch into those "being a guy isn't any easier speeches"...
Okay, yeah I doagree with that but I don't give a damn. It's like they think I'm "Choosing to act like a boy because it's easier".
Pssssh...nothing about trans is easy, and you ALL know that. The only thing that's "easier" is my personality because I'm not suffocating it under a load of heaping BS.

Sorry if this seems mad disjointed, my girlfriend is up my ass and won't stop watching me type (something that really wigs me out/interferes with my ability to sound coherent).

..Damn, I have a horrible habit of digressing threads.

my girlfriend is up my ass...

I can see how that would make it difficult to type coherently

Pfft...I love your commentary, did I already say that?
For serious. Every post of yours I read, I either sit there and think "Damn, that's a good point" or I actually lol. It's pretty awesome.

I get really ansty when someone's watching me type though, I don't even know why, and I end up either phrasing things vaguely/weirdly or dropping little typo bombs every other word.

LOL.. Dad always was telling people that I was a girl... making sure people knew because alot of people messed up and thought I was a boy.. when I came out.. Dad went on to tell me while I hadn't been feminine, I was sexy and such.. lol. Sex girl taht looks like a dude.. yeah.. maybe if youre gay dad.

Quote from: Tad on April 01, 2011, 11:32:30 PM
LOL.. Dad always was telling people that I was a girl... making sure people knew because alot of people messed up and thought I was a boy.. when I came out.. Dad went on to tell me while I hadn't been feminine, I was sexy and such.. lol. Sex girl taht looks like a dude.. yeah.. maybe if youre gay dad.

I'm not sure I would want my dad telling me that I look sexy, even if I was a girl. lol.

Quote from: C.J. on April 01, 2011, 09:38:15 PM
Oh yeah, I know. Everyone said I was "soo butch" and "ugly and looked like a man" even when trying to act female. And then I say I wanna be male and they're all "ohh you're so feminine, so prettyyyy."

This. Exactly this! Oh, how I get absolutely tired of hearing that crap over and over again! When I presented female people thought I was a guy and certainly didn't think of me as beautiful. And people have a tendency to claim " well those were just the highschool years. People were immature back then and they'd think you are a female now if you presented as one.". Well that's great and all, but I really don't give a damn. Why would I present as female now? Would they honestly want my depressed ass around them presenting as female when it clearly doesn't feel right to me just so they can feel comfortable?

Psh! I don't think so!

I swear this was off the front page last time I looked!
I get the whole, 'it's easier' thing too and bah... You know what my mum said to me, today? She's usually pretty cool about it and I GUESS she was trying to help but, she saw me kind of grimace in the mirror and said I shouldn't not look, I should look so when everything has changed it will seem like a bigger difference. O_o okaaaaaaaaay (little off topic)

More on topic: One of the biggest things that I hate about being trans is the awareness of gender, other people don't have to worry about what strangers think of their gender when they walk into a shop but we do. And a cis guy can pretty much do whatever he wants and be as flamboyant as something that is flamboyant (tired), sure he will get flak for it and maybe called a girl but errybody knows he is a guy... What am I trying to say? I have no idea now so I will impart some wise words from my physics teacher: Life is hard, so you have to be harder than life

Quote from: JohnAlex on April 01, 2011, 11:53:31 PM

I'm not sure I would want my dad telling me that I look sexy, even if I was a girl. lol.

I'm agreeing with this. Somewhat of a red flag there.