I JUST applied for my first passport as I'm leaving for Thailand in 58 days.... Not that I'm counting

I had my doc write the necessary letter to identify me as female on my passport (my drivers license already does.)
On the passport application, there is a box for a name by which you have previously been known; I was assured by the person taking my application that that name would not appear on the passport itself. It's a security thing.... The fact is that you were once known by a different name and they have to document that.
It was a stretch for me to be OK with that.... I still freak out if I get mail addressed to, "him." I hate seeing that name anywhere and writing it... even for one, last time, was an effort. It sucks but it's just something we have to do. I just remind myself that, a year from now, I'll probably never have to identify with "him" again.