hello my name is Lucy i am curently living as a male and was born in the body of a man but i was born a woman in my mind and spirit.
my story start out when i was 12 i was so confused at the time as i had only feeling for girls and still do till this day, but i tired on my mum's nail varnish and i liked it, i found myself trying on all her colours and in time i found myself wearing her clothes, i knew then i wasn't male but i didn't know who i was, so as time went on i started hanging around with girls when i was 17 i was accepted as one of them they let me listen to what they really talk about insted of when the guys were around i had dressed up and had make up on with them in there parties, they never thought of me as a guy i think or maybe they just thought i was gay, which would of been true at the time but not the way they thought as i am a woman and have feeling for women, but anyways time moved on again and i was 22 and i found my first long term relationship with a woman, i told her of my past and she let me wear nail varnish but i still didn't know at the time what i was, 4 years later we broke up and i moved back to my country, we stayed friends for 3 years, i somehow thought i could get back with her but it never happend, 1 year after i moved back i went to the doctor one day with my nails varnished, she asked me quite a few questions she then refered me onto a phychiatrst so she said i may have GID so i thought ok ill experement by dressing up again and i looked up on it more and found myself wanting this more and more each day as i relised i was trans and that all the anwsers i had been wanting all my life were this and that i was a woman, so i explored this more and i turned up as a woman when i met the psychiatrest he said i definaly have GID but it wasn't his decision to make so i was refered to a specialist who then asked me alot of questions i meen A LOT and when he was finished he said you definaly have GID and that all the support i need and deserve should be provided for me, at this point i wanted to be a woman but a few months later my ex gf decided she wanted to try for us again but never let me move country, so for about a year we tired and i put off becoming a woman, then 10 months ago i found myself having alot of suacidal thoughts because i wanted to be a woman but at the same time i wanted to be with her, i couldn't decide, it made me go a little insane so i ended up on depression tablets she then decided i was pulling a stunt and broke up with me, 2 weeks later she decided to talk to me again, told me she loved me 2 months later and i thought we were back together but she only wanted to be friends, i had been dressing up for 5 months at this point, so i decided a few weeks ago to tell her that i am trans and she couldn't take it and decided she didn't want to think a man she slept with wanted to be a woman but what she don't relise is she already had relations with a woman just in a man's body, anyways we no longer talk but iv'e decided i'm not going to let anyone stop me from becoming who i am, i have really enjoyed the last 5 months and i will be hopefuly going for hormones in 3 weeks time from today so wish me luck
and yep thats my story
here is a link to my youtube video, feel free to comment on my youtube video any sugestions would be great and it's great to feel accepted for who i am for the first time in my life
i relise i look like a guy in the video but i am going to improve over time, hopefuly hormones will help this
