Hi,
I want to ask if you have it same as me. When I found something to solve, something what I can get on it, then I feel happy, I haven't to think about my gender and everything is fine. (for few days-weeks until my zeal vanish, then is everything as bad as before maybe even more)
For example now I'm dealing with housing, I wanted to buy a house, but I didn't find any suitable, but I found nice plot so I can build a new house exactly as I have dreamed. So now my GID is gone, I can thing just for planing new house (and I'm for some time happy)