Growing up I was always ashamed of my family. Why? Because they were racist, homophobic, haters. They believed white people were superior, and they believed being gay was no different than having sex with animals. They hated anything that was different. Unfortunately for me it wasn't just my immediate family. It seems hate ran in the bloodstream. Although my mums side wasn't racist, they were still homophobes. My dad's side was the worst.

Anyways so this of course still continues. My mum can say some racist garbage every now and then that pisses me off, but she's generally accepting, I think it's only because of me. Do you know what my aunt used to do when they saw middle eastern people in shopping malls, she got her kids to shout obscene hurtful words, even if they people had children with them, and they'd plug their noses. This disgusts me to even think of, how the adults were laughing at how easy it was for them to breed their hateful ideals!

My dad and sister are alike. They are both racist, nazi supporting, homophobic, sexist ->-bleeped-<-s. Now we are not German, yet somehow my family has some crazy idea in their heads that germans are all Nazi's inside. My sister is dating a half german, he's a ->-bleeped-<-ing racist/homophobic/nazi supporter. Honestly I'm sure germans and most of the world would be disgusted to know this. My sister wanted to get the Nazi symbol tattooed on her. I'm wondering WHAT THE ->-bleeped-<-? WHERE THE ->-bleeped-<- DID I GROW UP? My neighbor is the same, another guy on the street is the same. I always thought Canada had a better group of people because we have things like gay marriage, but no, we got bigots just the same. My dad made HITLER TOUR t-shirts, I was disgusted beyond belief. I had no idea what Nazi's were at the time when he made them and I'm disgusted I let such a shirt touch my skin!

Anyways now my little nephew is turning four. My mum wanted to buy him some gymnastic equipment because the kids loves standing on his head and such. It'd be great for him. Now this is my sisters kid, not the oldest one who may be Catholic but has been THE MOST accepting of all the people I know. I'm ashamed that I know an atheist (my other sister, the one with the kid) who breeds hate like that, since normally that's why people are disgusted with religion!

Now I'm out to ALL my immediate family. My relatives don't all know, just a few. Many know about my name change but who knows what they believe since I never go visit them. My mums accepting, to a certain point, but definitely not supportive or understanding which is a weird combination in my opinion. My sister was accepting when I first came out, in fact she was on one of the most accepting. My dad I didn't come out to since my sister outed me to him while I was fighting with him, but he hasn't kicked me out and still tries to talk to me, even though I haven't talked to him in months.

Now at the time when I first came out to my sister my nephew was still young. She let him play with dolls and a kitchen set and everything girly if he wanted. Since she got with this ->-bleeped-<- nazi lover boyfriend who believes in child abuse as a form of discipline (this guy is ->-bleeped-<-ing warped!) things changed. She started becoming more homophobic like she used to be and more racist. Anyways back to the gymnastic equipment. My sister doesn't want her kid to have it, wants to get him a baseball and a bike! I was like, WHAT THE ->-bleeped-<-? She thinks this will 'Turn him gay' and it's girly. Who knew balance beams could make a kid grow up with a desire to suck dick?

I guess this is what I'm really pissed about. How can she accept that I'm trans and deny her own son his right to do something because of his genitalia? What because she's having a daughter now he has to be the typical image of little boy? I really hope he isn't gay because that would ->-bleeped-<-ing suck to grow up with a mom and a step dad who believe in ->-bleeped-<- like that!

Anyways so my mum and I were conversing about this and completely agreeing on how idiotic my sister was being about this whole thing. My dad overheard this conversation since he was in the bathroom, let me also say I did mention the balance beam and sucking dick thing out loud. I have always been outspoken on my beliefs in growing up. I remember I wanted to get a place downtown and my dad said it was a bad idea since lots of ->-bleeped-<-s went around there. I told him it's probably because they can't get good jobs because everyones a ->-bleeped-<-ing bigot like him so they have to try and make it in an affordable part of town. Anyways so when he came out of the bathroom he was pissed off, at my mum. He slams the door to the downstairs. I know why, he just got his reminder of a transgender kid and the possibility of more queers in the family. Who's to say if my nephew does grow up straight or gay or bi or pansexual or hetereoflexible or whatever? It's not something we will know until he's older and only if he decides to tell us.

This just all makes me so freaking angry. I hate living in this type of family, in a neighborhood where I know there are racists on my own ->-bleeped-<-ing street. My neighbors daughter walked home with a dark skinned boy, her dad freaked out, said lots of racist ->-bleeped-<- to her (thankfully not while the boy was around). I really hope the gay man who used to live on my street (he was open about it) has found a good safe place because thankfully he didn't have to stay here. This whole area is ->-bleeped-<-. All these cocky caucasians thinking they know what 'perfection' is. They think I'm crazy because I prefer brown eyes to blue, or because I prefer brown hair to blonde. These people seriously think I'm out of my mind for a ->-bleeped-<-ing preference! I don't have the money or job to leave right now so I have to put up with all this ->-bleeped-<-. You should see how they react when somebody with dark skin walks down the street. They seriously talk like they are being invaded, like these people have come to bring chaos to this trash city!

You know I didn't even know ONE dark skinned/asian person until I switched from my catholic school over to the public school where there were probably around ten in total in the entire school! I was like 11 at the time but I immediately knew racism was wrong. This really gorgeous dark skinned girl (had a crush on her twin brother as well) is the girl who stood up for me when a few girls decided to hate on me, refusing to allow me to sit near them or look at them. People of all skin tones are good/bad, there are no majority to each! I'm so sick of all this twisted bull->-bleeped-<-.

For all this I literally, for a long time was ashamed to be light skinned. I was scared when I was younger that I'd be seen as a racist because I was 'white'.

Anyways I just had to get this all out, it's really just been pissing me off. Homophobia/transphobia/racism, isn't it just getting old? I'm sick of being pissed about it because I feel I shouldn't have to anymore. But everywhere I go in this damned city, there are ->-bleeped-<-ing ->-bleeped-<-s!

Jay,
  I have German heritage, with the various name-your-Celt in my family's genes.  The ones you mentioned have low self esteem and will follow anybody that will tell them that they are superior.  This is what happened in Germany in the 1930's when 35 million German Marks was required to buy a loaf of bread.  A man made a promise to fix the German inflationary depression, was elected and owned up to his promise.  That man was Adolf Hitler.  My German teacher was a young man at the time and when Hitler got into power, he got a good paying job within a few months.  He was also was sent to school to be a German-English-Spanish translator.  He taught German and Spanish in my high school. 
  People really followed Hitler because of what he did to the 'Aryan' race.  To this day that murdering, racist suicide king is admired by those who think that they are superior.  I am a member of the Southern Poverty Law Center (SPLC) and many of today's hate groups follow in Hitler's footsteps, even if they are not white!   I often get the reports from the SPLC with maps with current locations and websites of these groups.  This is a US legal help organization though.  But they had a report that the KKK was trying to gain supporters in Yellowknife in your Canada, but left town with their tails between their legs!  They will have nothing of that 'eh!
  Your description of your family has nothing to what I seen nor heard of down here.  The modern racist skinheads do come more from the environment you described though. 
Jay,
  1) Keep communications with your parents.  Offer to do chores for them.  Do not talk to them about your GID unless thay want you to.
  2) Keep with your friends and relatives that are friendly, but again, do not discuss or give them 'too much information' about your GID.
  3) Job hunting:  Your presentation is key, the first impression by the hirer is key to getting a job.  You may have to 'girl up' a bit, judging by your avatar.  Of whatever sex you choose, your clothing must be neat, fitting and in a conservative business fashion.  Even if the job requires wearing dungarees!  However some of those job openings do want you to do the interview in neat, fitting work clothes though.  Get rid of the jewelry, this applies to about everyone in this economic times!  Your face piercings are considered a hazard in some work places, due to the machinery.  My co-workers had to remove or put a special covering on their wedding bands, becauce we worked with electricity.  The ones doing the hiring can really pick and choose from the applicants now.  Use #2 above with your new co-workers and your manager.  You need to build a good rapport and reputation with them, that takes time and patience.   
  Good Luck!
  Joelene

Tell them "blas mir einen."  Seriously though, I'm sorry you have to deal with them.  I'm glad that they have someone like you around to help introduce a new perspective.  Good luck. 

Goddamn man, that's horrible. I can't imagine dealing with that much stupid in such a high concentration and not going bat->-bleeped-<-, so I've got to applaud you on that. Seriously.

You need to get the hell out of there, hopefully the job situation is better where you live than where I am.

The ones doing the hiring can really pick and choose from the applicants now.

100%.  And if you are without any real skills, going for an unskilled job, of which there are lot fewer these days, they are going to pick people by looks and attitude only.

Almost feel like it would be worth telling  them you were going to emigrate to Israel so you could shoot Mulslims!    Just to watch their brain's gears seize up.
There is no arguing with people who are unable to see past the end of their own noses. As the others have suggested, best bet seems to be find somewhere else to live ASAP.
Hate to see families  divided by bigotry.
Karen.

Damn, man, not to totally disrespect your family but what's sickening is that here in this modern world, in 2011, people are still living like that and being that close-minded and hateful. I'm sorry you have to deal with all of that bigotry. 

When people complain about the cost of living in NorCal I try to remind them that at twice the price it would still be a hell of a bargain because what we have is so worth it.  Which basically is none of the above.