I thought I could deal with being out at school, but it's really been getting to me lately.

I'm sick of everybody's bull->-bleeped-<-, and even some of the people I'm hanging around, who came they support me, are giving me ->-bleeped-<-. Amanda called me "it", instead of "he" or "she", even though she claims to support me. Two or three of my "friends" have said, "He...she...I don't know what the f*** you are." And a lot of people have a problem with my name. They'll switch between my male name and my female name and will sometimes mix them together.

Then, I'm constantly asked by other people if I'm a boy or a girl. I'm laughed at, and made fun behind my back constantly.

And then there are the people who already assume I'm male (you know, the people who never talked to me) and then when they find out I'm a girl, they start laughing and making fun of me.

A lot of my "friends" don't support me, and being the only trans kid in school doesn't help any.

And I've had one girl who touched my chest to prove I was a girl. A few guys said they wanted to pull down my pants to "check".

My teachers have no idea that I am trans, because I planned to let them know at the beginning of next school year.

But just...I don't know. I googled homeschooling. Last year, I asked my mom to homeschool me, but now this is something I want because I can't handle other people. I hate a lot of attention, and it figures I am trans - something that comes with a lot of attention when you are out or outed.

I was thinking of online homeschooling because my mom says that she is too stupid to homeschool me, but I can't find any online homeschooling websites that work in my state.

Ugh. This is just a rant, I suppose. Like most of my posts. Haha.

I know the feeling. That's the ->-bleeped-<- I'm getting from these fakes who pretended to be my friends for the last 3 1/2 years. because they're just picking up where it left off in high school 15 years ago. Because in school, I was always made fun of for looking like a boy, and being a girl who looks like a boy wearing girl's clothes. But that was back when my mom still made the decisions for me. but now since I wear jeans & t-shirts, they're saying that makes me a guy, and laughing at me saying things like I have a penis.

I think you need to find an online school.  My sister is enrolled in this one, http://www.insightschools.net/   It is available if 8 different states.  What state do you live in?  I could do some searching for you and see if I can find an online school in your state.   I thought that every state had one.  But at the very least, doesn't your state have some kind of "alternative" school?  I attend an alternative school where I only have to come in once a week and get/drop off my homework for the week.

Quote from: JohnAlex on April 28, 2011, 09:40:30 PM
I think you need to find an online school.  My sister is enrolled in this one, http://www.insightschools.net/   It is available if 8 different states.  What state do you live in?  I could do some searching for you and see if I can find an online school in your state.   I thought that every state had one.  But at the very least, doesn't your state have some kind of "alternative" school?  I attend an alternative school where I only have to come in once a week and get/drop off my homework for the week.

I live in Maryland. One of my friends online who does online school couldn't find me anything for my state. What exactly is an alternative school?

QuoteTwo or three of my "friends" have said, "He...she...I don't know what the f*** you are."

Ugh, Julie has pulled that BS on me so many times. That's what's driven me from her the most, honestly, that ...refusal to even try. At least, that's what it sounds like to me.

Have you confronted anyone about it yet, because that's absolutely ridiculous. Anyone who's calling you their goddamn friend and then doing that ->-bleeped-<- is either incredibly clueless or not a real friend.

Why are people's first names being posted here without their permission?

Quote from: JohnR on April 29, 2011, 08:03:11 AM
Why are people's first names being posted here without their permission?

Ok since JohnR has raised this question - and indeed it has arisen before in other threads - as an official moderator ruling and for future record. I understand your concern but think you are being a bit over zealous on privacy here. As long as the use of a name does not "out" or uniquely identify anyone then I can't see any harm.

So a first name used without any other identifying details is fine. It would only become a problem if it was then coupled with other details like "Fred who goes to such and such high-school" 

Thanks folks.

Okay, 'cause my first thoughts on saying first names on a forum that 4743943 people go on means that these people are from the forum. I was going to say that is really shocking...  Otherwise what's the point of putting their names like we are going to know who they are?

Re: homeschooling, I was homeschooled through grade school and high school. My parents didn't really get involved in my schooling, and I ended up doing pretty much all of it myself. I got into a Little Ivy and graduated with honors, but there were many gaps in my schooling when I entered college. It's not hard to teach yourself subjects like literature, but try learning calc without an instructor.

There are alternatives -- have you thought about taking community college classes instead of high school classes? I know a few people who have done that. It would probably solve some of the bullying and teasing problems, since the people you'll be in class with will be adults, who tend to be a bit less jerky about these things. Plus you won't need to deal with the lunchroom/school bus/hallway problems.

CC classes cost money, but they're generally pretty reasonable, and in some areas you might wind up getting a much higher-quality education.

Alternatively, if you're old enough to drop out, you could do that and get your GED. I did that, no problems.

Quote from: Devyn on April 28, 2011, 09:49:51 PMI live in Maryland. One of my friends online who does online school couldn't find me anything for my state. What exactly is an alternative school?

An "alternative" school is a really, really vague term.  It could mean anything.  But it's basic purpose is to help students who, for whatever reason, cannot function in a normal high school.  So for example, at my alternative school, there are a lot of pregnant girls and 20 year old guys trying to get their high school diploma.  As for how the school runs, that varies widely from school to school. 

http://www.blueprinteducation.org/
Here's an online school I found which claims to be international and completely accredited. 

As someone mentioned, getting a GED is an option as well, but personally, if there was hope for another way, I would not stop looking for it.

Maybe try doing some google searches for alternative schools in your area. 

I was homeschooled, so personally I highly NOT recommend it.  It's a lot of work for the parents.  actually I would say that is impossible for parents to homeschool the high school years sufficiently.  You really need educated people in the different subjects to teach them to you.  Your parents don't remember how to do Cal, or trig, or even algebra most of the time.  unless they use it everyday. 

Quote from: JayUnit on April 29, 2011, 08:40:50 AM
Okay, 'cause my first thoughts on saying first names on a forum that 4743943 people go on means that these people are from the forum. I was going to say that is really shocking...  Otherwise what's the point of putting their names like we are going to know who they are?

I think it's an attention thing, so we can all say what an unsupportive bitch Amanda is.

I screwed around a lot in high school and ended up "graduating" half a year late through a night school at my high school. Basically it was classes 3 nights a week where I worked at my own pace on a computer. It's supervised by a teacher but no one talks so no fighting and such, anyone who starts trouble got kicked out. I got a diploma through them, maybe your school or one near you has a similar option?

Quote from: JohnR on April 30, 2011, 02:54:30 AM
I think it's an attention thing, so we can all say what an unsupportive bitch Amanda is.

Do you know how many girls there are that are named Amanda? I was just using a name so I didn't have to continuously put "My friend said this. My other friend said this. Another one of my friends did this." It gets annoying. A lot of people are bitches. A lot of people are unsupportive. I wasn't pointing out her specifically.

I don't think using a person's first name is wrong if I'm not stating where they go to school, or something specific that would say who exactly they are.

Do you know how many girls there are that are named Amanda? I was just using a name so I didn't have to continuously put "My friend said this

Yeah, I do that too, if I use a name, you can bet it's not the real name

Devyn, do you have any idea when you will be able to begin T?

Stick with school; if you don't face up to it now then it will become a very easy habit to slip into, hiding yourself away in the future.

It's worth dropping people and sitting alone and just zoning out to get through your schooling.