An exact quote of my update:

"I'm in a not so good place right now... maybe it's the beer, I don't know.... simply know that I would kinda rather be dead. I was born male and should be happy being male, but I'm not. Maybe I'm a freak.... don't know, simply know that I feel hopeless and want to do nothing more than cry and blow my brains out."

As indicated it sorta says it all... I am incredibly unhappy trying to play the male role. It's not me... and god does it ever hurt having to pretend that it is.

I just want to be myself, but don't know how to go about doing it.

It's not my intention to sugarcoat things... I pride myself in being honest... no matter how difficult it might be be hear... Right now there is a big part of me that would rather be dead.

It would be so much easier.... having said that, there's also the part of me that wants to make things work... and wants to *gasp* be happy being them self....


I'm confused and sad.....

If that is how you wish to tell friends and family, Go for it. 

Then you can go forward from there.

i agree with Janet Lynn. i think it's easier to do it through the internet rather than face to face.

That last bit about blowing your brains out might alarm your friends and family.

Yeah, I would delete it (at least the blowing brains out part) until I sober up if it were me. I've posted things online while I was drunk that would have been much better handled sober.

Tiffany, your cry for help, is being heard. Every one of us has been there and saying that to you, I know, doesn't make things better. Fact though is that we know what is there beyond this first step of finally accepting the truth. We know because, like you, we put down the gun, tossed a hand full of sleeping pills to sink and reluctantly set out on our new, true self discovering journey. Pain, oh yes, there will be pain, but with pain comes release of the daemons who held our souls hostage. I can not describe to you the joy of finally becoming me, for the first time doing things because I know who I am, I know Who I am! I too thought I will never say those words, but now I am able to smile to strangers, giggle to my self reflection in the mirror seeing my breasts peak through my tshirt ,

Hon you can do this, you will love what awaits you, and that is real You!

All my love, Inna.

I agree with the other post. Thi might be a little to outrageous way. The last thing you want to do is, make them think ur crazy right? So, i would highly recondmend to delete the blow ur brains out part lol

I'm out on facebook already, so this wasn't a way to come out... as everyone knows and has known for a couple of months.

My mistake yesterday was going to the beer festival I went to when I wasn't feeling well.

Started getting sick on Friday, went anyway because it was the first day of nine straight off work and I had already purchased a ticket. I think being sick it hit me a lot harder than what it would have otherwise.

I've since apologized on Facebook and simply said that I sometimes let the fear of this whole process get to me... which is true.

Thanks for the support everyone