I can't stand a crowded room oir talking with large numbers of people.
Its a matter of self confidence.

Today, I was supposed to show the new software package to 5-6 people. Ok. That I can handle....

The manager kept holding off till more and more people filled the room. Eventually about 20 people filled the room. AARRGGHH!

I started the presentation, delivered it and took questions. Finished, I left the room for them to discuss what they saw. It wasnt till I was back at my desk that I realised that I did it. I spoke with confidence and fielded the toughest questions.
I have some confidence! I see little things in me that I never saw before. The changes in me, some have been profund, others small. But all of the changes have made my life better.

I am glad to have met you girls. Have a good night! Sleep well!

Well done. The first time is always the worst. Next time you should know that you can do it! 

A couple more times and you'll be speaking to a hall with an audience of 1000 - as I have done on many an occasion.

It's all a matter of self belief. People ask me how I do it? The answer is, because deep down I am arrogant/self confident enough to believe that I can entertain and educate my audience and therefore I believe they will love me. Thankfully I haven't played any really "tough" venues yet - or I might feel a bit more unsure of myself.

Isn't the adrenaline buzz you get the best feeling in the world though? For me it's very addictive. Someone who knows me very well once came to one of my shows and said that for her it was obvious that I was only every truly alive in front of an audience - because I became like a different person 

Totally what Jenny said.

I lecture and talk at big meetings. I find it a real buzz. I love communicating my ideas so I do a lot of public speaking. One of the great things is that the confidence it gives stays in your whole out look of life.

Congratulations
A big step

Cindy

Valerie

You are easily capable. The guys look at your boobs and the girls look at your clothes. Neither of them pay any attention.  So I push the boobs out and wear cute clothes that the girl students can't afford. Yep, I'm a bitch. Love it.

Hugs Doll

Cindy

yay good job !!! =)

It just seems weird that every once in a while, I see how I have changed since surgery.
Mostly for the better. One change I am tired of, is going to bed at 8:30pm to dialate 

Yay Congratulations Julie! you go girl!

Quote from: Valeriedances on May 19, 2011, 08:03:06 PM
I feel the same way. It feels weird, like I'm watching someone else in my body doing and behaving in ways that I never would have before. Yet I know it is me.

Maybe that's what it feels like to be empowered.

I like it!

haha I like it too, and know exactly what you mean.  I feel in a very real sense how that old person is gone, and gone forever.  Everything is new and the possibilities are endless.  It's great to be cured of a lifelong affliction, isn't it?