I'm pretty sure I am going to try to relive my mid-late teenage years from 20-24 years old, as much as I can (that's next year). I feel trapped a bit right now, like I have limited options. I want to dump my CEO (this is new to me), but I been thinking, if I go with him I might as well toss my 20s out the window without any fun in life; he is offering free college, business stocks, and training to take his place in his business. But is that the life I really want? It's a decent life, but it's not exactly exciting to me.

I want to take a 1-2 gap years, and then go to college in the fall of 2012 or 2013, and then doing those gap year (s) I'll just party every night and go through the clubs in California. At the same time working as an exotic dancer or something that supports that lifestyle. Then come down off that roller-coaster, with the money I earned get all the plastic surgery I need.

Then I would go to college to become a therapist or a psychologist, specializing for transgendered people.

I know a guy in California who would want me to be with him, so finding a home in California wouldn't be too hard. He's also a talent scout for Christian music, and he has a pool. So it wouldn't be a hard life for me at all....

But then my CEO.... he is giving me an opportunity of a lifetime, but it's not my calling. I really thought about it hard, very hard, and I was really serious into it for a second. He's giving me so much, and I would almost be a fool to drop him. But then I want to be a woman, and I don't think he would be with me if I do that.... The California guy wouldn't be either, but he's not giving me much except a home to live my life.

Well as a new postop in my twenties I naturally reprised my teens for a while - I then settled down and was sensible until I was about to hit 50.

At that point I went back to uni for a masters degree in a new subject - and spent some time re-living my twenties... lol

So re-living ones youth seems to me to be a surprisingly common activity.

I now just have to get things back on the rails and get back to being sensible, which in this economy is proving more difficult than I would like.

Sometimes I think I am still living like a teenager. I still like and enjoy pretty much everything that I had when I was 20 something years younger. I really have a hard time with the growing up being a typical boring ass adult. But then, I still haven't gotten anywhere really with my life because of my inability to grow up. But at the start of this year things have begun changing, I've been having to start taking more responsibility, paying bills, trying to get some credit to my name, began making plans towards future goals, most things because of what life threw at me over the past year and a half have taken a turn for the more serious, and I'm seeing it, sometimes it scares me, so I have to try to make sure that I don't let it all hit me too hard, I don't want to start taking life itself too seriously, gotta still be able to enjoy things with a youthful outlook, try to find a good balance, deal with the important things, but continue to enjoy myself.

Quote from: Wild Flower on May 22, 2011, 11:15:01 AM
I'm pretty sure I am going to try to relive my mid-late teenage years from 20-24 years old, as much as I can (that's next year). I feel trapped a bit right now, like I have limited options. I want to dump my CEO (this is new to me), but I been thinking, if I go with him I might as well toss my 20s out the window without any fun in life; he is offering free college, business stocks, and training to take his place in his business. But is that the life I really want? It's a decent life, but it's not exactly exciting to me.

I want to take a 1-2 gap years, and then go to college in the fall of 2012 or 2013, and then doing those gap year (s) I'll just party every night and go through the clubs in California. At the same time working as an exotic dancer or something that supports that lifestyle. Then come down off that roller-coaster, with the money I earned get all the plastic surgery I need.

Then I would go to college to become a therapist or a psychologist, specializing for transgendered people.

I know a guy in California who would want me to be with him, so finding a home in California wouldn't be too hard. He's also a talent scout for Christian music, and he has a pool. So it wouldn't be a hard life for me at all....

But then my CEO.... he is giving me an opportunity of a lifetime, but it's not my calling. I really thought about it hard, very hard, and I was really serious into it for a second. He's giving me so much, and I would almost be a fool to drop him. But then I want to be a woman, and I don't think he would be with me if I do that.... The California guy wouldn't be either, but he's not giving me much except a home to live my life.

Something you need to be careful about is that there is always a prettier girl on the horizon. Sure, that california guy may seem perfect, and you may luck out with everything and getting exactly what you want out there. But there's a significant chance he will tire of you and kick you to the wayside.
Jobs and education, however, are much more longlasting. They are not a guaranteed thing anymore either, but atleast its a safer bet.
My recommendation: start HRT, if you haven't already, live as a guy while you boss sends you to school and trains you for his job. Then when you finally do get his job and it's a sure thing, go for the operation and live as you please, while being able to support youreself. Being a woman may feel incredible, but it feels even better being a woman who does have to rely on a man to support herself!

Me I walk with a BARBIE GIRL wallet at my age. People laugh at me, I don't care. I'm catching up the lost part of my adolescence as a teen girl.

Quote from: Sad Girl on May 22, 2011, 01:27:36 PM
Me I walk with a BARBIE GIRL wallet at my age. People laugh at me, I don't care. I'm catching up the lost part of my adolescence as a teen girl.

Being an 80's child, I just can't let go of Susie, my cabbage patch doll.  I frequently get comments at the drivethrus since she's always buckled up in my passenger seat :-)

Lol... ok I was talking about the age group of 16-18 being lost, not my childhood lol.

I did played with Barbies though.