I thought it over, for the past 2 weeks, dwelling on all my issues... well I guess I cave in to the college idea, well for one I have 2 years of tuition paid off in my state (I hate this state). But I seriously don't want to be here, since I want to live my life away from my family, and I told them, "If I am living here in this state, then I don't want to see you for the next 4 years". And they were fine with that, but still the guilt in my heart is weighing down because I was trying to see every alternative to this... I don't believe in college that much, but I have to do it to feel like a successful person so I am going to do it. If I am doing it then I am living in the biggest metro city that my state has.. But seriously my family makes me hate this state, they are so controlling over my life, and they are so against everything "different".

I'm dropping all my out-of-state plans I suppose, dropping my CEO guy who will give me a high paying job (I wouldn't see the big money until 2-3 years though), dropping my Californian men, dropping them all.... I feel like I am sick to my stomach when I have to tell them this. They were all real too, and I guess I was living in a fantasy world.

But when I look at it, I will get a higher paying job doing this instead... and it's much safer to do this... like taking the safe route. So I hope I am taking the wiser decision here... but I am definitely going to leave this state after the BS degree.

It's not a liberal college I am choosing to transition at it, more like a regular college.  So how did you dealt with transitioning with your family in the same state? I'm praying to God I don't visually age between now and then, with me taking Retin-A (the only modern way to prevent skin aging).  I am going to transition now, but with me losing my job due to many employees working there I don't know where to go in this state.

edit: Just told the CEO I decline the job offer, that was the toughest decision of my life, ever...

Uhm, I guess the first step is to come out to whoever is close to you and get a doctor and a therapist to help you down the road. Then, if you feel ready, you can talk to the college's administrators to see if they would let you use a female name and everything related.

But this is a pretty vague question. Do you think you could give more details?

All colleges have incredibly long winded and fantastically boring codes of conduct, rules, and administrative polices, I'll bet they are all accessible for every college in the US on-line.  Google the university's name, and try words like 'transgender policy' 'lgbt' 'straight-gay' and start clicking, all that info is there somewhere.