I was discussing my interests (video games and old cartoons like Jackie Chan Adventures, etc.) with my mom who was pretty absent when I was younger due to her work. During the entire discussion she seemed interested in me, but would always pull out a snide comment like "you're going to have to change" whenever I mentioned something about my personality that didn't get along with her extremely girly view of me (such as the fact that I have a kind of brash, gung-ho attitude towards life thanks to being raised around a bunch of other men).

What infuriated me was when we were walking home one afternoon and she pointed out her favourite bird. My favourite bird happens to be a vulture, and I pointed this out not expecting the hellfire that was about to come (my favourite bird is technically under the "New World Vultures" and is called the American Black Vulture). My mom got infuriated at me and said:

"Why do you choose to be this weird? You used to be cute when you were in elementary school!"

I got a little bit annoyed and said that it was my personality, only to receive her repeating the same line and that she was going to have to fix me. I got very, very angry and managed to hold it in until I was in my room because the years in which she said I was "cute" were the years in which I was constantly bullied/used/ignored by almost everyone (I was the "freak" of the class) to the point where I attempted suicide.

Yeah, just a childish rant, but I couldn't get it out of my mind without writing it down.

If she needs someone to be cute, I volunteer 

my mum was around this afternoon and she didn't fail in reminding me how much she really doesn't know me. I'll spare the details but basically it's like she has this vision in her head of what she wants and expects and just ignores everything I say about myself. I can understand how mothers can be like this... I mean they put so much time and effort into raising a child that they in someway feel they deserve something in return, like a say on how you develop once you reach an age where you are free to decide for yourself. It's irritating and frustrating when you try to explain that you are your own person yet...... deaf ears. The funny thing is my mum always wanted a daughter and she now wants me to be extremely feminine yet I'm closer to the middle/androgynous.. I'd trade this over enthusiasm with anyone in a flash if I could.